sadism

Just had a really intense session with Sir and I feel *really* slavish and floaty.

Thank you for all the comments, I loved them. Last night I put IcyHot all over my pussy mound, clit and in between my pussy lips. At first the burn almost hurts, especially with my tight panties and jeans on. I sat down and let myself suffer. My pussy was very wet after that. I would love for someone to bring me to the edge using only their mouth. My pussy wants to cum so bad, it is very wet. The last time I let myself cum was 3 nights ago and my orgasm was ruined. Afterwards I was so frustrated! My job makes it even harder.

For those of you who have been following my blog and like some continuity, I'll briefly catch up before continuing.

I didn't get to orgasm on my birthday; The reason being, Sir gave me a special birthday beating which involved:

So, 1-2 weeks ago, my Master began reading my blog...I knew when it happened, so I didn't find out through what happened afterwards, but I know He definitely read it---as well as some other links that I sent Him---*very* thoroughly...

Earlier this week, we had an absolutely agonizing play session involving penetration denial and clitoral stimulation denial---which I will post in much more detail later ;P---but this post is mostly to share what just happened today...

I found this blog of a submissive who is under orgasm denial and multiple edging. I found it pretty hot... Her master had her edge 100 times yesterday, got her nipples pierced last weekend.

her profile on fetlife has a few pictures - incredible tits...

http://smoochieslut.blogspot.com

http://fetlife.com/users/681989

Today has been an interesting day. I had been asking Sir to share his thoughts and feelings with me with a little email each day, and today he sent me the first instalment of his Dom blog! I can't tell you how much it excited and aroused me, it was amazing. He said that he was glad I had suffered so much with the clamps yesterday - that it shouldn't all be fun and that he wanted me to suffer for him. In truth, although I was begging him because it was so painful, I too am glad that he didn't give in and I was grateful to be made to complete the full hour - he's right, it shouldn't all be fun, and I like knowing that even though many things we do are very pleasurable and enjoyable for me, that there is still an element of genuine pain for me to submit to - both with the clamps in that position, and with things like the medium Delrin cane. It's not submission if I only ever have to do the things I enjoy, and I like proving to him that I am willing to suffer for him beyond what I find enjoyable, as well as the discipline aspects of it, that it can be used to correct undesirable attitudes and behaviour and to underline his Ownership of me.