masturbation

Hi guys. I've been away for a while; I caught a bad bout of bronchitis and lost my mojo for a while. I haven't been in touch with Sir for a long, long time and I've no idea if he even consents to being called Sir by me these days! I've just emailed him to let him know I'd be posting here, and it was quite a difficult email to compose. I don't know if he even still reads here. :/

I returned to a sexual life after a defect computer took all my nerves. Just now I enjoy a lot having "his" dildo inside me and the wi-vibe at my clit. As the wi-vibe is ovally and open at one side, formed like two fingerns grasping at something. Normally you have one part inside and the other outside on the clit. It is very arousing to let both parts grasp at my clit. A very nice new experince :-) I almost came within the first 2 minutes, which is very unusual for me. I managed not to cum and now as habituation takes place will surely hold on for some time.

Or at least I think it was a ruined orgasm...

Sir told me to put on the posture collar, the black nipple clamps with the chain passed around the slats on the headboard, and then edge for 10 minutes. As soon as I started I wanted to cum, but I breathed and tried to disassociate myself from the pain and the pleasure and the urge to orgasm.

Woke up in normal state of mind and body, but a chat with my parttime-Dom aroused me almost immedately to a playful state again. Now I am sitting here, a little wet and my labia partet wide by the rings by some - how do you call that? - straps-strings.

later on I will go into the city with my nipples just a little bit pushed up by the rings on them with a string around my neck and a nylon pantyhose on my naked clit, hold tight by other strings through my genitalia from front to back

I decided to try again a few days of tease and denial from now on until Sunday evening (which is a lot for me, but there are several duties who destract me, so it should be okay) No heavy teasing, but a little bit and help in persisting until Sunday. There is time for it before I go to bed (about 30 min to 1 hour) and maybe one or maximum to short periods of about 5 to 15 min during day. A dom will assist me online.

Day 1

I thought you might enjoy an update on my ongoing game with O. After she gave me a little too much backtalk, I punished her by taking control of her hands as well as her vibrator; she wailed about that, but after a weekend of no-touch, she actually found it easier to not masturbate at all than to masturbate without climax. Naturally, I couldn't have that, so her hands are allowable again. Orgasm is not.