cybersex

The itch is nagging. The desire unescapable, the need is everpresent. I'm horny. There is no doubt that my mind and body won't let go of the primal urge. When I spoke to her about it last night she said I'd just have to be horny. I was reluctant, but I accepted it and went to sleep. Only it follows me into my sleep. I dreamt of a world where you could actually feel what happens to your online presence. Games and chats that had avatars enabled you to actually feel sexual pleasure administered by others in cyberspace. She has an avatar. I have an avatar. Our avatars played with one another. My avatar brought her to many orgasms. You can program avatars. Hers was very orgasmic. Mine was nearly anorgasmic. My avatar was just about to finally break over that edge, and I could feel every little touch, my avatar sexually sensitive and transferring that sensitivity to my real body. Just one more little push and I'd have the most wonderful orgasm, but the computer crashed right then. I was left panting and unable to cum. I woke up, unable to cum in reality due to a medicine with the side affect of anorgasmia. I attempted to skip the dose last night. She wouldn't let me. "Awe, poor baby," she said sarcastically "...you have to be horny."

I have been asked to share more about Eve's turn-ons, interests, etc., so I figured I would put it in a new entry, instead of making a massive reply. Eve is into pain, humiliation, OD, and teasing with O. I tried to select all the things see is okay with in the Sexual Activities/Sexual Toys section above this post, but I'll talk about it a little here.

Eve is excited by private and pseudo public humiliation. To clarify, private would be something she does only in front of me, such as eating food with my cum on it. Pseudo public might be something that she has to do in public, but no one could possibly notice, such as wearing a butt plug at work. True public humiliation, such as masturbating in public, also excites her, but she is also very afraid/ashamed of it, so I use it only as a punishment.

Thanks to all for their kind words of welcome. This is a response to maymay's and fishcake's requests for more information on my 'prude' technique for female denial.

Ask yourself this: What is denial all about? To me, there is a one word answer: control. It is the gift of a submissive woman to say to me 'here is something basic in my life, something I have controlled for years, and I give it to you.'

To me, the 'prude' technique is simply taking orgasm control a step further, and influencing what your submissive wears, and ultimately and ideally, what she thinks about the basic act of sex itself.

I'm a heterosexual male, 34 years old, who is apparently very submissive. I want to deny myself, because the feelings I get when I'm denied orgasm are so incredibly intense, but I don't have the discipline on my own. It's very strange. If someone tells me I can't have an orgasm, I can obey, but on my own, I give in very quickly. In the past, I once went 28 days without an orgasm, including multiple daily teasing sessions to the edge. However, that was with someone else controlling the situation and dictating both the rules and teasing sessions. The longer I go without orgasm, the more obedient and submissive I become to the person in control.

I love to watch women teased in public, whether they are with someone or alone. I particularly favor women who masturbate with their legs, but don't reach climax. Instead, they sit "on the edge" on a train, a bus, in class, or in a library. My ultimate fantasy is to notice a woman "in need of stimulation." Then she crosses her legs, rocks back and forth, and gets more and more excited by the minute. I approach her and say "come like that,without using your hands." She smiles and begins to grind her hips to increase the stimulation. Suddenly, she begins to pant. Then I open her legs, and say "not yet." She stops, looks at me, and says "but why? I'm so close!" I reply "because you are my fantasy and you may not come until I tell you so." Now, she's fidgeting, on the edge of her chair, juices dripping through her panties, but still awaiting my command. "Now, clench your cunt muscles and stimulate your clit without using your hands." She obeys, and finds the difference a great turn-on. She creams more, and then asks, "May I come now?!?" "Not yet" I respond, then kiss her softly along her neck. She shivers with unfulfilled need. My tongue moves to her breasts, and softly teases each nipple until they are fully erect. Meanwhile, her lower body is in spasm--she squeezes her thighs together to increase the sensation, but I pull her knees apart to prolong her agony. Now, other people are starting to notice us as we do the teasing dance. One woman stares at us both, then starts to fondle her nipples through her silk blouse. In seconds, both nipples rise hard and high. She's wearing a business skirt, and wiggles her bottom as she gets more excited watching us.