experience

Lots happened in the past several weeks! As a result of these things, she and I have spent a lot of time apart. First I was out of the state, now she is. We got to spend a wonderful weekend a few weeks ago together, which was nice. Prior to that, while I was out of the state, I was released from any sort of chastity (both from the chastity device and otherwise imposed), though my lack of privacy in the hotel room proved to be enough of a detterent on most nights.

When I got back home, however, I was having orgasms left and right. During our weekend together I was once again forbidden to cum or masturbate with permission from her, but I was so happy to see her that it didn't really matter at first. I had, however, become somewhat accustomed to my hands on my penis, so I was permitted to masturbate a few times, yet still forbidden to cum until the last night, when she finally granted me an orgasm.

Hi! I guess my interest in the topic at hand is just about as old as my interest in sex in general.

I discovered what was between my legs early on, but as puberty came, I found myself relentlessly horny. My solo techniques at the time were either tickling the shaft or rubbing the head against something (usually with me lying on my back pulling the sheets taut and rubbing the head on the sheet). Of course, this made things beautifully sensitive, but I didn't cum. Not that I knew what that was. One thing to note was that I (and the other boys whom I shared such things with) described the sensation as like feeling like I've gotta pee really bad. This ended up with me often holding my pee for pleasure. (Which I still do to this day.)

I just want to share my current experience.

I and my girlfriend are not really new at that, but while initially she was just curious (and I was too), now she started to enjoy her role, and she became very nasty in teasing me.

We've started few months ago, as a joke once she told me that she was going to touch me, but without going till the end. It was fun.

Then came across a website about T&D, and got excited at the idea.

I didn't know how to tell her, so once when we were making love I asked her what she would think if I didn't cum at the end, whether this could excite her.

She was surprisingly turned on by that, and we did it.....but after half an hour she touched me again and I blew my semen.

I'm going to make a horrible generalization and say that being bored is probably the number one instigator of the urge to masturbate. I say this because I think for me it is true. I've been studying all day today and all day yesterday and, while the material is somewhat interesting, studying is not an activity that holds my interest. As a result, my mind wanders. Specifically, since I try to remain focused on the (dry) material, my mind wanders to (less dry) other things, like sex. And that's when I remember I'm all locked up, and do my best to refocus on the material and keep studying.

This happened earlier today and, when I began getting discouraged by my lack of enthusiasm for learning this stuff (which I really must do), I popped into the bedroom. She and I snuggled a bit and I started feeling better. I mentioned that I was (and am) horny and she said that if I was good and studied like I was supposed to, we might be able to do something about that horniness thing later. This ellicited a smile and with a pat on my ass I was sent back to my work, which I was suddenly far more motivated to do. The thought also made me even hornier

I can't write a lot at the moment since I'm in the middle of cooking dinner for us tonight, but I thought it interesting to note some of my thoughts today. I'm genuinely glad, for both fetishistic and non-sexual reasons to be locked back in the CB. Even after all these months, that's probably the first time those two differing motivations have coexisted side-by-side in such a balanced manner. It's a really nice feeling.

For clarity of the record, I was released the night of the 19th (a Thursday) after six days of lock-up. That night, I was treated to some incredible sex (intercourse) and even got to cum during it. One of the things that made the sex so good (besides not having received any stimulation for the previous six days) was just the way it played out.

I wrote some of this the other day (the 15th) in my pen-and-paper diary. It's relevant, so here's a partial transcription with a bunch of new writing thrown in.

Yesterday she locked me back in the CB. She had asked if I liked being locked. I told her yes, but I couldn't really explain why that was. So after thinking about it for a while, here's a list of reasons why I like being locked and some additional observations on the matter.

Being locked in a CB redirects my sexual energy. I still get horny, but instead of wanting to masturbate or do something to myself to feel release, I direct to her, kissing and otherwise pleasuring her. Since my pleasure can only be experienced by giving sexual pleasure as opposed to receiving it, that's where all my sexual energy is directed.

Today is actually day 19, but entry is from last night. I had an "after hours" surprise.

Well... i'm just after an online session which has left me throbbing and desperate. I was supposed to be going to bed, but... I did as I was told, and was driven to the edge of insanity WITHOUT EVER TOUCHING MY CLIT!

I thought I was too sick to get really aroused tonight, but a bit of clever seduction, and I found myself doing whatever he said, exactly as he said to do it. Explicit, detailed instructions. When to start, how firm to touch, where to touch, how long, when to stop.

I've only just realised that I haven't had an orgasm in 2006! My last orgasm was Friday, Dec 30th.

I think I'd like to have an orgasm now!

Well, well, well... b/f likes the remote vibrator, apparently! He was playing with it last night. I'd forget it was there, and suddenly, bzzzzzzzzz! And he was chuckling with an evil laugh. He kept doing it over and over, and I got more and more aroused, more needy. Started arching my back and trying to get a position so it would really hit the Spot. The telling evidence of his appreciation of his efforts with the remote was a bit of a strain on the fabric of his jeans! He wouldn't tell me what it was specifically about his little game that caused the response. He is usually quite unimpressed when playing with "toys."

I once read a long while back that there are at least two distinct sorts of stimulation for a male's penis that have a different physiological reaction: a downstroke (stimulation in the direction of the penis head, down the shaft, to the base of the penis) and an upstroke (the reverse, from the base of the penis, up the shaft, to the penis head). On an upstroke, the stimulation simply causes arousal as one would expect, but on a downstroke, the direction of the stimulus actually induce the nerves to make the internal tissues convulse, thereby forcing the various contents of a man's ejaculate toward the penis head and nearer to orgasm.

An interesting post on the forums lead me to write a bit about my own body's response to sexual stimulation. I thought what I wrote was interesting enough for me, personally, so I'm gonna blog it here.

Usually, after long teasing sessions in which I refrain from orgasming it is then harder for me to actually cum when I'm given permission to. I think it has something to do with a number of factors, including what Angeline mentioned about being "too stimulated" and feeling "a bit numb," (that happens to me sometimes, but only after a long time with intense stimulation) and the fact that I had been trying not to orgasm.