Hetero female

Hello all! Finally posting something...I wrote this several days ago in a diary entry, and got permission from my Master to post it here *^^*

Wrote this after being on orgasm denial for 11 days...Currently on day 19, and not going to cum until at least after August 1st, maybe longer...eep....
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Fantasizing again...about You, holding a set of very soft watercolor paintbrushes in one hand, a various assortment of open cups of stimulating lubes on the table before You, alongside a very soft, unused sponge. You place the brushes on the table beside the cups, and look at me....I am also on the table, tightly bound with ropes...You have carefully bound my legs with the knees fully bent, securing my lower legs to each of my thighs. You then secured my knees together with a rope looped behind my head. Once You secure my ankles in a spread position, bound tightly with rope to the table, You take a set of earplugs and carefully set them in each of my ears. You ask me something--reading Your lips, I can see You are asking me if I can hear You. I cannot. You then press me back down against the table, and secure my collar and my knees to the table, keeping me tightly compressed, ropes pressing my legs towards my body, forcing my pussy to press outwards from my pelvis. Seemingly satisfied, You place a kiss on my lips, grin, and place a heavy blindfold over my eyes, adjusting it until You are certain I can see nothing but blackness.

Horny, so very horny...

I keep looking at Sir's cock on my desktop picture and squirming as I imagine being impaled on it and damn, I just can't help myself today.

Yesterday it was quite difficult to edge myself. The more I do denial, the more I get used to feeling sexually tense. This means that it's hard to stimulate myself without that feeling. I was quite sated and content yesterday and didn't particularly feel the urge to cum, so it was hard to get the juices flowing and get myself to the edge.

Today though, Sir's pussy was biting. I was hungry to cum and the wanking felt good and by the time I forced myself to stop, the thrust of my hips was rapidly pushing me towards orgasm. If I hadn't stopped when I did, I could easily imagine myself cumming. Today, I don't know what was up with me, I couldn't stop thinking about his cock sliding into my ass and cunt all thick and hard and leaking pre-cum. I was horny, and juicing up and wanting it. And I'm sat here now feeling the same. I want his cock to grind up and down on, I want Sir lay beneath me while I gorge myself on his body, pushing down hard on him to jab his cock into me deep and hard, almost painfully.

Sunday's Journal

Sir has gone back to London and he asked me to write a journal for the weekend, to be waiting for him when he got back.

After I last wrote, I stripped to the blue underwear, put on the wrist and ankle cuffs and kneeled by the bed, waiting for him. As soon as he came in the bedroom and saw me, he started bulging with a hard on. He stripped off his clothes and forced his cock to the back of my throat, making me moan in bliss. It wasn't to last for long though. He pulled me up, slipped the hood over my head and tightened it firmly, then put the collar round my neck and locked it on, clipping the heavy leash to it and pulling me onto the bed. He clipped my ankle cuffs to my wrists so my legs were held apart, and fucked me hard. His cock was so big going in, I virtually screamed and his thrusts were so deep and hard I was writhing and groaning on the bed, holding back from cumming. He pushed the cock gag into my mouth, and clipped on the blindfold, then put the clover clamps on my nipples, causing me to groan in pain. He pulled his cock out of me, rubbed me hard with his fingers and firmly instructed me to cum. I was gutted but he's my Owner and I can't disobey. I obediently let my body cum, then he pushed his cock back into me, fucked me hard, then pulled the clamps off quickly, making me scream, before pinning me to the bed and filling me with cum.

Friday's Journal

Today has been an amazing day, and it's not over yet.

Sir sent me out for a walk before with tiger balm on my clit and the rosebud in my ass. So I walked for a mile and then went to pick up my sewing machine.

It's quite surprising how painful it is to wear the rosebud in your ass - the feeling of being opened and penetrated by something hard and unyielding - makes me feel like I'm walking round with Sir's cock firmly planted deep in my ass, and not budging. After an hour or so, when it was really hurting me, I kind of went through a subbie thing where I was telling myself it was Sir's cock in my ass, that it was exactly where it should be, that my holes exist to be opened and used by him, that this is completely normal and I should accept it and get used to it, and then I went into a kind of subbie bliss where I was really accepting it in my ass and enjoying the feeling of being submissive and being used and hurt by my Owner.

Setup to look at the possible link between orgasm and pregnancy.

Can when you achieve orgasm have something to do with your likelihood of becoming pregnant? Looking at other studies dealing with what happens to the female body as it both approaches, then crosses the orgasm threshold. It seems fully possible that there may be a link. We would like to organize a six month preliminary study to get at least some baseline figures before asking for a full double blind study. If this is of interest, we'll be looking for 24 participants in this first study group. Due to the nature of this study, participants will be signed up on a first come first served basis. After the initial group is formed, monthly updates will be posted.

Decided to join the site because I came by accident on Thursday.

Between my husband and I, I have more experience and probably more interest in tease and denial. He's always made varying degrees of effort to do it since it's what I want, I think over the last 6 months or so he's really starting to enjoy it and feeling like he wants to push it forward on his own, independent of my constant encouragement.

Over the last couple months there have been some longer episodes of not cumming, originally more like a few days (I know, that shouldn't really even count, but.. you have to start somewhere) but recently extending up to 1 week +.

Sir just left to go back to London for a couple of weeks, and I am left sitting here wildly horny, so tempted to wank, but loving the feeling of denial and the submissiveness that it brings.

I didn't orgasm from Thursday morning till today. Sir has been a fiend for the cane all this week, so I have been getting my pain fix daily, and sometimes twice daily. I was on my period, so he was using my mouth to empty his load into but he got very horny today and told me he wanted to rape my ass instead. I got on my hands and knees and he drove his cock into me so hard, I sobbed, it felt like he was tearing me. Something about the pain and the hard thrusts and him holding my hair, with his body slamming into my bruised ass all worked together and I quickly reached the edge.

I am writing female denial stories that can be found at the Book of Allison link. I am also currently in denial with an online Dom and currently denying an online sub. If you go to the blog, you can read the stories I have been working on and also see some video footage of my own personal denial.

Best to you all,

Allison

today was the first time i have ever gone outside my marriage. i have been trying to deny who i truly am for the past 13 years, and i just couldn't take it anymore. i met Sir Wednesday morning online and instantly fell under his spell. my vanilla went to breakfast this morning (Thurs) and i called Sir on the phone as instructed. within a half hour, i was getting dressed to go meet him. i walked in the door as instructed and dropped to my knees. i knew that when i walked in the house, i would end up doing more than just "meeting Him", but i didn't turn around and leave. as He walked around me and lifted my skirt, my heart fluttered and my cunt got wetter. He just stared at my ass, i have never felt so vulnerable yet so incredibly aroused.

According to this research, the more orgasms a woman has, the less attractive she finds men. Sounds like a good reason to keep your lady in denial!

From this link, there is a PDF file of the actual study. Interesting stuff.