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Newly redone blog, Has games, a chat, and free t&d videos of a subbie that is on orgasm denial where you get to vote for the out come of each video.

I feel a little strange posting this as my first post. I've lurked on this site for some time. I am into female orgasm denial from the perspective of the dominant and I love how deeply intimate teasing can be. Teasing requires you to constantly observe your mate. To see how she reacts as she gets more and more aroused. To observe the unconscious signals she gives (with my gf it's three quick almost stuttered inhales usually followed by a quick contraction of her thighs). How many men simply fuck their wives/gf's and yet know nothing of their bodies.

My lovely Mistress and beautiful, intellegent Wife, this is an expression to you of how I feel right now. It is mid day the day after a wonderful evening of teasing carresses from you. Though each one was tauntingly brief it sent me into an intensly romanticly loved state of mind and left me impossibly more aroused. You sent me to bed panting and frustrated beyond belief as there is nothing I can do to relieve my desire, bound as I am in my chemical sexual prison. It didn't take long for me to do my best to break free of the invisible force keeping me from having a mind blowing orgasm to douse the maddeningly intense desire I have for you. I'm certainly turned on enough by your loving teases to achieve glorious satisfaction. I am stuck impossibly close it seems. I would not be craving release so much more intensely than usual if you had not teased me and this was simply an effect of the medicine, for you turn me on with the fiercest fires burning within while the medicine only frustrates me. This feeling is exquisitely better, though much more intense indeed.

I'm currently on denial of my own free will. I have been texting a friend in London for the last few weeks. She admitted to me about a week ago that she had been woken from an erotic dream having an orgasm. Apparently it happens to her sometimes. Wow! I thought. That's pretty cool. I want that!

It has only happen to me twice in my life. I started masturbating at about the age of ten, before I actually produced anything messy at all. I still remember having orgasms where nothing was produced. It was great - nothing to mop up! That soon went. Like the rest of the world, I am now addicted to orgasm.

This isn't fair. I know that life isn't fair but why is it that *I* had to be the one who had the adverse effect of a super hyper libido and still get the normal anorgasmic side effect on the meds I have to take to boot. The frustration of the fact that nobody can do anything about it (except my wife, as she is sadistically enjoying having total control over my body) is only intensified by the fact that these side effects are not only going to continue while taking the med, but for up to a *year* after I am weened off of it. Arrrrggg.
Dulled sexual sensation of the genitals is part of the effects, but it's only a dulled sensation. The rest of my errogonous zones (non-genital) still have full tactile sensation, and I can get right up to the edge. I can even ooze precum for hours but still no orgasm. Though extremely erotic, it's the *most* sexually frustrated I have *ever* been in my life.

I have begun to experience a real world version that sounds like a dream come true to some and a nightmare for others. For me, it's simply a fact of life and I'm going to make the best of it. Fortunately I'm used to being denied, which is good since the experience is anorgasmia (the complete inability to orgasm).

I am anorgasmic only because I'm on a (carefully monitored) SSRI for mood modification and a medicine that uses SSRI properties for pain relief simultaneously. Both are working for the prescribed reasons, but I am not able to achieve orgasm while on them. The first one delays my orgasms and the second one makes it much harder to "let go", though they are more powerful when I can. Combined, I can't go over the edge *at all*. The doctor had me cut the fast acting second one for a short period to determine which medicine was affecting me. Turns out they are working together against me.

I am a young fit male. I am used to ejaculating 2 or 3 times a day. I want to control my orgasms to see how long I can last.

I have now managed to abstain for 42 days. I feel amazing.
My balls are heavier and I feel warm and very full inside. I have been masturbating to the edge everynight, and friends have also been teasing me to the edge over and over.


I am not sure how much longer I can last.

Damon

I have decided to deny myself an orgasm for one week. This may not seem very long to most of you here, but it's a long period for me.

When I'm not denying myself I normally cum at least once per day.

There is a small catch about the denial period. I'm going to make a list of tasks to complete with a maximum date for the task to be completed. For each task that isn't completed on time I'll add another day of denial.

I've locked myself in a CB to make it hard for me to pleasure myself. One key to the CB is stored within a block of ice in my fridge, the other key has been stored in my storage which is at ground level of the complex where I live. This way I can't easily unlock the CB but I can get out in case of an emergency.