Horny Already

Sir just left to go back to London for a couple of weeks, and I am left sitting here wildly horny, so tempted to wank, but loving the feeling of denial and the submissiveness that it brings.

I didn't orgasm from Thursday morning till today. Sir has been a fiend for the cane all this week, so I have been getting my pain fix daily, and sometimes twice daily. I was on my period, so he was using my mouth to empty his load into but he got very horny today and told me he wanted to rape my ass instead. I got on my hands and knees and he drove his cock into me so hard, I sobbed, it felt like he was tearing me. Something about the pain and the hard thrusts and him holding my hair, with his body slamming into my bruised ass all worked together and I quickly reached the edge.

He told me I could cum if I wanted to, but this is such a difficult question for me to answer. It's like asking a dieter if they want a cream cake - of course they do, but they also want to be thinner, so they deny themselves. And of course, I wanted an orgasm, but I also wanted to be submissive, so I asked him if he wanted me to orgasm and he said he did, so I came. The feeling of my violated ass cumming on his cock sets him off and he fucks me even harder, which makes me cum again so I came quite a few times before he dug his cock into me and came hard, his orgasm shuddering inside me.

So I've cum, but ass orgasms are not as strong as pussy orgasms, and my little clit is buzzing away, throbbing to herself, full of excited nerve endings wanting to be rubbed, and the feelings coming from my sore, stretched asshole aren't helping. I'm horny as fuck, my throat and asshole hurt from being used, while my pussy and clit throb juicily to themselves, completely ignored and out of reach for another two weeks at least. I love being denied, but the bridge from being his fucktoy, to being his chaste little subbie is a hard one to cross. I just want to get myself off, right now, again and again, and it would feel so good, with all the dirty, hard, painful things he has been doing to me all week.

My pussy belongs to him... my clit belongs to him... my holes are there to be used by him... my pleasure is irrelevant.... I only orgasm to please him... subbies don't need orgasms, only Owners need orgasms...

I keep saying it to myself in my head, but it just turns me on even more

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