Mustn't be greedy
I don't know if anybody is reading this but that's okay, I'm writing this for myself anyway. Hopefully someone appreciates it.
I am supposed to finally come tomorrow after a 7 day denial. I was previously under the impression that I would be able to have my first orgasm at midnight, and offhandedly said something about this to Mister. He was swift to remind me that because I had been staying up far later than I should have been masturbating on my orgasm days, the new rule was that I had to wait until the morning.
Well I had been counting down to midnight and I swear I went through the five stages of grief. I begged for just one cum then the belt back on to morning, I exlaimed something about fairness (as though it matters what's fair when Mister gives me an order!), and Mister informed me that if I argued again he would add a day to my sentence.
His final word on the subject when I told him that I felt like crying was: "Cry if you want. As long as you are crying you can edge. But don't fucking come until the sun comes up tomorrow or I'll cut a finger on your left hand so you have to bandage it and can't get off until it heals."
I love that man.
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Hello. Don't worry, I'm sure people are reading your posts. Just not many seem to comment. I wish this place had a thing that kept track of how many views a post had ...
It's good that you are getting so desperate, so frustrated. That is, partly, the point, wouldn't you agree? For some the point is pure submission, I guess. I don't know about the cutting the finger thing, though ... but that's just me. Even a little paper cut can make masturbation uncomfortable, I know.
I do love the thought of a sub getting to where they are craving an orgasm so badly that they are at the point of tears, or even actually crying. I'm 12 days into a denial myself (I'm a guy though, btw) and know the feeling. My Mistress has had me edging so much. I might get a few ruined orgasms tomorrow ... but not another full one until another week or two, possibly even a month from my last (22 Jan)
Keep us updated! I really want to know how it is once you get to cum.
Oh I don't think he'd really
Oh I don't think he'd really cut my finger (although he might... I am right handed but I get off with my left hand so my edges and orgasms would be the only things affected), he just knew it would turn me on to threaten such a thing and he wanted to make things even more difficult for me.
I love feeling desperate and I love that he loves me feeling desperate. I've been edging quite a bit too and I love/hate the feeling. I've always wondered though... as a man, do ruined orgasms cut the intensity of your denial? I know for me a ruined orgasm leaves me very sensitive for a bit, but I am able to work up to an edge again much faster than I would if I had actually came properly.
I've never done as much as a month but we are working our way up to it, I am very excited. Thanks for the response!
Yes, for me at least ruined
Yes, for me at least ruined orgasms generally do lessen the intensity of denial. But they can make longer terms that would otherwise not be possible, possible. I know some would disagree, but for me I've never considered ruined orgasms to end a period of denial. The actual ruined orgasm/orgasms are almost always horrible, as they are happening. They offer no pleasure for me, for sure. But if I had been getting really worked up, like if the tension and the "full" feeling in my balls was getting to the point of unbearable, they offer a little relief, after they are over. Sometimes they lessen that "achy" feeling for up to 3 days, but other times they don't really help at all.
But sometimes they do feel like cheating a little, other times they are so bad it's just like punishment. Worse than not cumming at all. And they guarantee that I loose all that I'd "built up", that huge orgasm that is normally the "payoff" of denial ... so I'd struggled all those days for nothing. That makes them especially cruel to me. My longest denial ever thus far, 20 days, ended with a ruined orgasm (then a full orgasm 30 minutes later. But of course that orgasm was way, way less than it would have been). My friend did a dice roll and I had to follow through. It was definitely the hardest thing I've ever done in denial. Before that I'd never ruined an orgasm more than 5 days in the making.
Anyways ... I've always wondered what ruined orgasms are like for women? Do you have any experience with them?
I'm with POI, I want to hear
I'm with POI, I want to hear about the cum.
Ruined orgasms for me are
Ruined orgasms for me are primarily just frustrating. It's getting to that peak point where you're hovering on the edge and suddenly tumbling over... but without that physical high, it's a sudden loss of all that energy and sensation. I do find that there's a lot more of the post-orgasm body relaxation than there would be if I hadn't cum at all which is really nice because sometimes constant aching can get a little overwhelming, especially when I've got work to do.
Yes, I'm more relaxed after
Yes, I'm more relaxed after them too. I've always imagined they are very different for a women. I myself got to have 7 yesterday. Today is was back to edging (20 edges). So I'm still in denial. Like I mentioned in my other reply, still many days to go.