Round Two -- Hajime!

5/13/2012:

4:30pm: Actually, the club was less of a turn on than I thought it would be, largely because of the two girls I was interested in, one turned out to be a crossdresser (which I'd have totally dug had it worked out) who left with the other girl. Sigh...this is my life. So I ended up just dancing away my excess energy and having a wholesome good time with my friends. (and watching some dudes make on the dance floor, which is always a turn on). I got in at about 6:45am and was asleep at 7am. When I woke up, I was horny again, though not intensely so. I also realized when I went to the bathroom that I was soon to be getting my period (you can tell). Sir was online, which was a surprise because he'd had plans and I didn't expect to see him. We ended up talking about life abroad for almost an hour before I asked if he wanted to play. That's when I found out he had wanted me to ask for playtime (I'd been under the impression that I wasn't supposed to ask, but now that's sorted).

Once I had asked nicely enough (I'm not so good at this until we really get into the scene I think), he asked me to strip. I'd mentioned I had some vibrators previously, and he asked to see them. I have three: a mini-vibe that charges through my USB port, a battery run vibe that has a clit stimulator and rotates for the G-spot (my fave) and one of those plug in ones that was originally marketed at a massager but is actually a vibrator. It's basically a water proof half ball on a stick with an incredibly powerful charge. He liked the last one the best, so when he asked me to choose which one to start, I chose that one. He had me run it over my pussy for a while, and then over my body. I ended up putting it in the place between my vagina and ass (intracrural?) and it felt really good there. I was getting really turned on, but the large vibrator also desensitizes me a bit, which was actually a good thing. I was very turned on but in no danger of cumming.

After that, we had a discussion of what he'd meant by 'no touch'. I'd sent him the reflections I'd had on the morning before our session, which included me being so hot I ended up dry humping my futon through my panties just to keep things in some control, which he thought had happened after our session. I told him I'd done nothing of that type after he'd said no touch (though it had been very difficult) though I'd had issues with not occasionally squirming in the chair on the train in order to get some stimulation there. He clarified that when he said no touch, I wasn't allowed to touch myself sexually in any way (including rubbing my thighs which I hadn't known) and that if I did touch myself sexually, I was to make a note of it, inform him and accept a punishment.

So I'd already earned two punishments for squirming on the train and rubbing at my thighs during the day of no touch, which he would give me during our session. I accepted this. He gave me the first punishment to slap my thighs vigorously ten times. I did this, but didn't enjoy it as much as I'd enjoyed slapping my ass. Then he asked me if I would want release (to cum) today, and I told him I'd rather not know when I was going to get released and that I'd rather it be his decision. He agreed to this. Then I told him that I was pretty sure I'd be having my period very soon, and he informed me that during my period I would not be allowed to cum or touch myself sexually. This is especially challenging for me because I'm very sensitive during my period. Also, usually before my period I'm incredibly horny (I'd thought my horniness was entirely due to the denial, but I think some of it was also pre-period hormones. My period has been out of whack because I was on Lupron for four months to stop my period before fibroid surgery in December, and as I've been coming down, my period has been irregular. It's improving, but still not perfect). I usually masturbate to orgasm a few times before my period. Now I've been masturbating without orgasm before my period, and I'm guaranteed at least 5 days of denial during my period (possibly seven depending on how the month goes).

Next he had me take the mini-vibe and run it over my body, including putting it in my ass as I'd enjoyed the ass-play with the large vibe. While the vibe was in my ass, I had to finger my pussy with my other hand. It felt weird but I actually liked it. After a while though, it began to be too much (and felt less good), and I asked if I could stop. I explained I had liked it but I thought I needed some lube on the vibe and tried it again. It was better with the lube, but I think I'm going to have to experiment more to get a feel for what works with the vibrator in the ass.

When I was ordered to turn the second vibrator off and stop touching myself, I unconsciously ran my hand over my thigh which I often do for extra sensation. I told him immediately and he said I'd earned a punishment. I had was to put the clothes pins on my nipples for two minutes. I then had to thread my hands behind my head, arms splayed as before. He asked me how I liked the position and I said it made me feel submissive. My nipples were extra sensitive because it's right before my period, and the sensation was sending stabs of pain and pleasure down to my crotch. I really wanted to grind or move because I was so turned on, but I managed to hold it together. When he told me two minutes were up, he asked if I wanted to leave the clothes pins on longer. I asked if I could touch myself, hoping it would be as last time when the clothes pins made the sensation of touching myself so much more intense. He said no, but I was enjoying the clothes pins so much I asked if I could leave them on a bit longer. After another minute I had to take them off.

After that (and I'd cooled down a bit), we switched to the third vibe, which was the most dangerous because that one always gets me to cum. I was soon very hot and begging to cum. He first told me to turn off the internal stimulation, and then when that got too much and I was begging again, to the turn off the vibrator entirely. Then I had to let it go and lay with it inside, with my legs spread in front of the camera until I'd calmed down. This was very difficult because when I let the vibe go, the tip of it was still stimulating my G-spot. I really wanted to push into it for more stimulation, but I was afraid it would make me cum so I stayed still.

Then he head me take it out and clean it, licking it as though I was giving him head. He had me hold it in deeper and longer, which I tried but eventually my gag reflex kicked in and I had to stop. After a bit of that, where I could see him stroking himself as I did this, he had me put the vibe away and sit with my legs open. He talked a bit about a date he'd had with a girl who he'd gotten to cum just through kissing her. I was surprised this turned me on. We also talked a bit about remote control vibrators (I want to try!) and sundry. Then he gave me my second punishment. I had to slap myself on the ass, first one one ass cheek and count off until he said stop, and then to do the other side. I did this and when I was done, I realized I was even more turned on. (entirely different from when he'd had me slap my thighs earlier, don't remember why) I told him this and he asked if I wanted to try doing that again. I said yes and we went for 30 times on each side. My hand and ass was hot, my ass a bit rosy, and I really, really wanted to touch my pussy. I asked permission, and he said no.

I was told that from now, I wasn't allowed to touch myself sexually until my period was over, except for to play with the ass, which he wanted me to do. I also wasn't allowed to cum. I said I was concerned about losing my arousal after days of no touch, and he said he understood, and that I would be allowed to touch myself between 10:30-11:30pm if (a) I felt too desperate (b) I felt myself losing interest, but that I'd have to notify him if I did this (and that I might get a punishment, I'm assuming if the reason wasn't good enough). If I touched myself sexually at any other time, I would have to notify him and accept a punishment. Lastly, if I came before I was given permission, I'd have to perform a much larger punishment. He asked if that was fair, and I said it was. We chatted some more, him stroking himself and me not. He asked how I felt sitting there being frustrated while he touched himself. I said I felt frustrated and that I really wanted to touch myself, and he reaffirmed that I wasn't allowed. He asked if I would cum if I saw him cumming on camera, and I said I wasn't sure. We also worked out some times in our schedules where we might be able to talk during the week, and he said he would give me instructions via email if necessary.

When we finished, and said goodbye, as with yesterday, the need became more pronounced. I took a shower, careful not to do anything sexual as my pussy throbbed. The arousal for me seems to get worse after a session. Even though I get myself close to cumming during the session, I don't really FEEL the need until some time has gone past. In the shower, I played with my ass a bit, careful not to touch anywhere else. It felt good, and I really wanted to touch my pussy in some way to compliment the sensation, but I didn't. I did accidentally lose myself and caress my fingertips under my nipples once which I should be punished for (Note from the Future - 11:13pm: I did inform him later on this night, and he had me slap my thighs twenty times. This time it actually turned me on, go fig. As I edit this, my thighs are burning a bit and I can feel it in my pussy. It's weird.). Then I stopped showering and chatted with a friend. We agreed to meet and go shopping in Nagoya. Getting ready, I found myself frantically pacing. I think the arousal is making me a bit manic. I wrote the Japanese hiragana character の (no) on the tops of my hands so I wouldn't forget myself and break the 'no touch' rule. I find that I'm in the most danger of breaking this rule when I'm not thinking of it.

My walk to the train station was surprisingly agonizing. With each step, I could literally feel my pussy throbbing and my clit moving in the folds. For the first time in my life I felt like I could cum just from WALKING. It was incredible. I was nervous about riding the train, but actually as I type this out, while I can still feel my wet pussy and the arousal inside, I'm not quite so close to the edge. I have been very mindful of how I'm sitting and moving, being careful not to break the rule.

11:30pm: Still hanging in. Hopefully I'll be able to get through tomorrow without breaking the rule at all. That's my goal!