day 1 and 2 of 6
I decided to try again a few days of tease and denial from now on until Sunday evening (which is a lot for me, but there are several duties who destract me, so it should be okay) No heavy teasing, but a little bit and help in persisting until Sunday. There is time for it before I go to bed (about 30 min to 1 hour) and maybe one or maximum to short periods of about 5 to 15 min during day. A dom will assist me online.
Day 1
Yesterday evening I used 2 pens to touch my clit and my nipples for approx 10 minutes. It worked: Gentle arouseness, a bit of dreaming alongside, no clenching of any muscle with the exception, that two or three times my eeehm - stomache? muscles when I started to touch my clit.
After that I was tired and slept. This morning again I touched myself a little and on the way to my kids I did some Kegel exercise for about 5-10 min.
Suggestions of the dom are still in discussion, for he did not care to read my plan carefully and therefore did not get my aim correctly. But hope is still there to reach his poor handycapped dominat brain (sorry other dominant folks, but I hate being not taken seriously. )
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Seems I reached his brain
This evening I will ride slightly for about 15 minutes on a broomstick between my labia (not inserted in vagina), blindfolded and hands behind the back and just feeling until the clock rings. Secondly I will be on all fours, maybe a plug and/or dildo inserted and lower down to very slowly touch the bed with my nipples for 8 minutes. This will be very challanging, for longer than 2 min drives me crazy. We shall see how long I manage
Both very nice things to do.
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the teasing session was nice.. he nor really asks for true answers, how I really feel. this helps a lot. no wonder ;-) nippels 5 min was long enough. i laid a towel underneath, its roughness was wonderfully teasing, dremingly, maybe i do that again. the broomstick was a bit tricky to sit on, finally i laid beside it and THAT was great! humping my wet labia and clit was delicious. we even managed to give him a look by webcam. alsthough the next days I will not do so. it distracts my attention too much. nevertheless is was a nice experience for both of us.
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Happens more often than you
Happens more often than you think. Talked with many subs over the time, and often in the initial talk it is like "i will respect your limits and goals"... but in the long run they fully ignore this.. and push the subs to the point they wanted them to have, often making them uncomfortable, or pressing into limits.
I know not all are like this, but the internet, the anonymity, gives many people the chance to just let their inner pig out, and call this "being dominant". And that is where the bad reputation comes from then, or when people say "all dominants are like this", yet thats not true at all. But usually it is so that the bad impressions stick better, that this is what gets talked about. The good things, the connections that really work wonderfully, is often something that is kept in private. I am sure there are way way more of those good connection, but the ones you hear about are usually the bad ones, what makes it appear that all seem to be like this.
Over the time i helped out many submissives, that they understand that being submissive doesn't mean they have to be doormats, helping them to embrace their submissiveness, instead being put off by it as they got hurt, put into situations they dislike. I always say the most important part in any relationship, especially in kinky or dom/sub ones, is the respect for each other, as persons, and for the limits they may have. I think even "fucktoys" and slaves earn this respect, they are still people. This seems to be something that gets put aside often in this modern online world, seeing them only as cheap ways to get off, to be like "it only counts that i myself get satisfied, who cares how you feel".
Lol sorry for this little rant, but i helped enough subs lately, who got "walked on", who lost any self confidence, who lost the like in all this, sometimes even their life, cause they were treated badly, and they were wondering why they let it happen, if something was wrong with them. It is cause they do not understand their submissiveness, why those things turn them on. Getting taken advantage off by the first person who notices their submissiveness and insecurity, and they even sticking around, as a part of them feels like those are the only ones understanding them. As they are clueless what else is out there, how else it can be. I really could tell quite a few stories there, and most likely some of you can too.
YES!!!!!!!!!!
I agree fully. I put it this way: The woman has to watch over the sub, whom she allows to dominate herself.
Fortunately I trained myself a lot, so I managed to call the dom to terms. Seems, we are on a good way now. - No problem, he only has to follow my istructions *fg* Okay - "to respect my limits" is the correct way to put it.