First time

Hi everybody. I'm maida. You might have seen me hanging out in chat the past couple of weeks. I've been reading Tantalism for a lot of years but I've only recently signed up. I've been denied in the past - six weeks was my longest - but it was a few years ago now and my current need for denial finally became too overwhelming to resist. So I've been hanging out in chat with a very specific purpose in mind! Nelia said in a comment to me that I should be open to nice possibilities, and last night a possibility came along. After a teasing session, Sir agreed to take me on for a month of denial.

He's already given me rules, and they make me squirm with delight. I'm not allowed to cum with permission (doh!). I'm not allowed to edge without his permission. I'm not to touch his pussy or clit without his permission. I'm to be clean shaven at all times, and I'm to be naked whenever I'm in my bedroom. And I have to update Tantalism every day, to the best of my ability - there'll obviously be some days when updating this blog might be impossible, for whatever reason.

Last night he had me edge several times with his clit, before we made our arrangement. He asked me to clean my fingers (and toys) with my mouth after I'd used them. This isn't something I've really enjoyed in the past, but I did it because he's asked. That's another rule, by the way - always clean up with my mouth. "Clean your fingers the new way," he said to me, and it really turned me on.

After the clit edges, he really began restricting my access to it. I didn't really touch it again for the rest of the night. He had me do what he called the "1 second dildo fuck" - 1 second in with the dildo, 1 second out. Repeat. I have to sit still with my legs spread - no rocking allowed. Before the first dildo fuck, he had me lube up my butt plug with pussy juice and then insert it in my ass. I LOVE THAT BUTT PLUG. So much. You have no idea! It always gets me juicy. So the first couple of times were with my asshole (his asshole? I suppose it is) filled up while I fucked his pussy with the dildo. It was so good. So good! And then he had me take the plug out, and suddenly the sensations in his pussy were so intense. My g-spot was happy happy happy.

And then Sir said stop, clean your toys and fingers. So I did. He asked me how I felt and I told him I felt completely hollowed out and empty. He said, "You'll be empty for some time." I'm looking forward to finding out what that means. After some discussion about terms of address (slut, whore, little girl, etc etc), he asked if his pussy needed some attention. He had me begging him for touch, and eventually he was good enough to let me tap his clit, once every two seconds. Tapping doesn't do a whole lot for me, but I was so desperate to touch it and I enjoyed begging for that meagre touch, the humiliation of begging for something so fleeting.

Then it was no touch for the rest of the night! I went to bed so wet, I could feel it between my legs. I was squirming all night, and I woke up horny, something that hasn't happened for a long time. It was a nice feeling.

Today I'm allowed to touch his pussy and breasts as much as I want, but I must not touch his clit or nipples, and I'm not allowed to edge. When I woke up today my breasts actually felt swollen and I so, so wanted to touch those nipples. I didn't, though. I've had a very lazy morning so far - I've shaved, as per orders, and then showered. I use a scrubber to wash, and I washed between my legs as usual, which meant I didn't accidentally touch his clit - but today rinsing the soap away with the shower head had me humping the air. It was amazing, and I've never reacted that strongly to water before. I've been horny all morning, and I'm already wet again. It's a really good feeling.

In short, I'm really very pleased right now. I can't wait to see what the rest of the month brings. :)

This is my first try at a blog, at Sir's request.