Personal Blog Entry

Hello everybody!
For everyone who could possibly remember, I disappeared (or tried to) one day because my then girlfriend/fiancee/better half did not approve of me blogging here. By the way, she's now my wife/mistress.
What has changed? Not much really. I am just writing an idea (with her consent to share this idea with whomever might be interested) that had been put to good use in our relationship.
The idea is pretty simple: I am not allowed to have orgasms until I get promoted at my job! (and a minimal pleasure gaing) It has been 4 and a half months so far since I last experienced the full blown orgasm. That does not mean I have gone this far without release though, but release does not come in the orgasm way. We have tried a couple of times slow masturbation until I would ejaculate without pelvic contractions, and never once been successful, both times ending with a ruined orgasm. We have tried anal sex towards me and prostate stimulation/milking, and ended the same way. I'm sure we are not doing it right, but we won't be trying that again (she does not like it). Naturally there is automatic sleep release (happened only once if I am correct). Plus she has made me come in my sleep a few times, but I am not really sure when because we (well the idea was mine, implementation could not be) have a system to prevent me from knowing if I really came in my sleep or she is just f*ing with my mind. I have to wear a condom from time to time when going to sleep. I know that I might get a night treat. What happens is: 1) she gives me the night treat and removes the condom; 2) she does not give me the night treat, removes the condom and puts some juice from any (1) occasion condom she has somewhere, so when I wake up I don't know whether the sperm dried on my penis is from current or past treat. 3) the condom just stays on; 4) the condom just comes off; 5) no condom at all, just she making me come; but in 3 and 4 I know nothing had happened, and 5 is pretty similar to 2 if she wants to. That's f*ing with my mind too. Such nights are carefully chosen, when I'm tired and she's rested. Maybe I even had a drink or two.
Anyway she came up with a simple idea of biweekly release with minimal pleasure gain for me. (even before this started I generally came once a week or 2 weeks, so apart from orgasmic release my body does not really feel any different). In the morning, or when I came from work, with nothing exciting going on through my head (minimal exciting thoughts at least) she masturbates me up to the point of no return and lets me have a ruined orgasm immediately, without foreplay, without satisfying her first. And I must say that is very effective.
This setup is a sacrifice for both of us, she tells me and I believe her. She loves making love to me, full body to body melting and penetration. Currently I must assist her the best way I can through her pleasure gaining experiences. Massages. Oral sex. Dildo and strap-on, to minimize my pleasure.
We are not using a CB to keep me from touching myself (relying on faith that I'll be a good boy), but If I get my promotion before September she has promised to try and make true some things that currently are just fantasies, like a super secure CB with PA piercing, tattooing "property of Mistress" on my penis and maybe on some more visible part, being made to come in a variation of ways that are not only vanilla or "bound vanilla" but more into the SM area, and even going through the weekend tied and teased. Especially the CB thing with PA combination seems to tease her thoughts (I could come out of the CB6000, plus that thing was no where near comfortable for long term wear) and she is coming to love more and more the idea of being satisfied with a strap-on instead of a penis prone to error of not being unable to satisfy her long enough or ending my denial period early.
Results on my work field: focused on my goal, odds would be really good if there was an opening, but there is still a slight chance of getting what we want before September even with no openings. Economic crisis apart :P