Do I want to cum?

Master asked today if I wanted to cum yet, for the first time I had to think about it. Yes and No. I have started to think about orgasm recently, when before I evaded the issue by keeping busy. Now I wake each day thinking about my need to orgasm, with a throbbing in my pussy that doesn't quit. Adding to this is the torment that I haven't touched in any way for 13 days, and have a further 25 days to wait until I can touch or be touched again. Sometimes I think that when Master touches me after this endless sentence of no touch I may explode.

Yet I do not want to cum! How can I go back to what I was, walk away from this endless desire, the tingling and the butterflies...........no way! Maybe one day the time will come..........but so not yet xxx