Very Aroused
I haven't had an orgasm since April 1. James has made me wait longer than this, but he also often lets me come sooner as well. I find that when I go without orgasm for a long period, I am sometimes quite content with my situation, and at other times I am very frustrated. This is one of those frustrated times.
Tonight James had me masturbate for him. This is something he likes now and then. He watches me and usually masturbates as well. Often we do this as a kind of foreplay leading to other things. Tonight we started out with him sitting on the bed next to me rubbing his cock while I steadily stroked my pussy. He caressed me now and then with one hand.. stroking my cheek.. fondling my breasts.. rubbing my belly.. and finally running his fingers over my bare pussy lips while I stroked my clit. It felt great to be touched that way. His fingers were gentle and loving. Yet they made me feel owned. I was his toy for him to enjoy as he wished. That was exciting.
I had real trouble keeping in control. I got close to orgasm quickly and spent most of the time hovering more or less near the edge. I really, really, really wanted to come and as time went on the urge to let go was almost more than I could stand. I asked permission to stop several times, but he only allowed me to slow down, reminding me to stay relaxed, keep in the moment, and enjoy the feelings. After maybe a half hour of steady masturbation I was barely moving my fingers and yet I stayed on the verge of orgasm.
Finally he moved my hand away and started stroking my whole body with both of his hands. When he reached my feet he sucked on my toes. I was so worked up that even though I wasn't touching myself at all I had to ask him to stop or I would have come. He let me relax a little to get better control. "You are not going to have an orgasm tonight," he told me in no uncertain terms. That helped me a lot.
After a short rest he fucked me. It was slow and steady, and it felt exquisite. I am not normally orgasmic during intercourse but tonight I could have been easily. I concentrated as I always do in situations like this on staying relaxed, pleasing him, and enjoying the intense pre-orgasmic sensations radiating from my pussy. It wasn't long before he came in me with a loud howl and our sex ended.
That was about three hours ago. James is now in bed sound asleep and I'm here feeling very turned on. My pussy is wet and hungry for more. I masturbated a little while ago, but I stopped when I realized that I might not be able to control myself. I know that if I were to have an orgasm right now, it would be *incredibly* good. However, thinking about that doesn't help.
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Completely understanding your
Completely understanding your situation, I feel sorry for you (and for all those whose partner just turns around and sleeps, or does some teasing out of "obligation" before turning away and sleeping). I know this is the way it is supposed to happen, a deeper feeling of control from one to the other this way, maybe they should turn around and force sleep upon themselves even when feeling like playing, but still a feeling of sorrow for those (me included, naturally) who are left to see if they can maintain control and not come while touching themselves after their partner has left for the kingdom of Morpheus, or see if they can keep their hands away if they are in a no touch predicament.
Wonderful story, an almost perfect ending
What a wonderful picture of need, having your partner turned on to this extent is what we long for. The thing is, you need to endure these times, even embrace them, when your sleep is unattainable, if you are truly suffering in desperation, you are exactly where you should be, aching for his touch, your mind, your body, wondering if you can take it, can handle the need, the desperation. When in this situation, as long as it will not interfere with his plans, kiss his neck, take his cock into your mouth, gently suck him, rouse him with pleasure, beg in a quiet yet submissive way to be touched, to be used again. Even softly whimpering, asking him to hold you, keeping yourself openly available for his fingers, however you must not be demanding. Having a woman lying in your arms, almost sobbing in need, her pussy aching for more, aching to feel that forbidden orgasm, is such an astoundingly erotic experience. While in this position yourself, you can beg, cry, plead for him to touch you, promising not to cum, begging him not to let you cum, softly sobbing for him to hold you, to use you, to help you, knowing you are his, knowing even your suffering in need is pleasure for him, just remember, in the end, the choice is his.
Lovely
What a lovely description. Thanks for sharing that. I see you posted at 3:30 in the morning. I love the mental picture of you wide awake in the middle of the night, James sleeping soundly, and you ready to explode with sexual desire and frustration, typing out the story.
Well I have been about as long as you now, but I am in more of a content mode. This may change in a hurry tonight though, as I have been told I am in for some prolonged and merciless teasing. Makes me kind of excited and nervous to think about it.
Good luck!
Amy, I hope things go well for you tonight, and that you are able to please your Mistress. Good luck to you! I hope you have fun. I know what you mean about feeling excited and nervous at the same time. I love pleasing James but sometimes I worry about my ability to live up to his expectations. I don't want to let him down and unfortunately sometimes I do.
I'm not sure why my post said 3:30. Honestly it was more like midnight when I wrote it. I suppose it's some kind of time zone thing. Either way, it was true that James was sound asleep while I was wide awake and wrestling with my lust.
Today was a good day for us. We did some yard work, shopping, washed the cars, etc, etc. I woke up feeling moderately horny but we got busy right away and that distracted me. However, James made it clear earlier that there is going to be more sex tonight so I've been feeling some of that nervous anticipation myself.
cuddle, cuddle for pleasant dreams
After sex without orgasm, finishing with a nice, long cuddle session makes all the difference for me, in being able to unwind, and drift off to a contented, unstressful sleep.
You should try it, if your partner's willing, and patient enough to work through any early awkwardness.
As you embrace, taking slow, deep breaths and gazing into one anothers' eyes, just imagine the intense arousal diffusing, spreading into a lovely, tingling aliveness, all through your bodies. I find myself rocking back and forth a little during this time, without consciously meaning to, squeezing him hard, sometimes laughing or crying a little. It's such a rush :)
I've always been a serious cuddle freak, my BF less so (maybe a gender thing), but he's been won over, amazed at the wonderful vibes and feelings of completeness, peacefulness this can bring... also, after making love, it seems to help him banish those persistent erections, and makes cramping less of a problem for me.
Don't get me wrong, lingering arousal can be great fun too (when we're going out, say), but not so conducive to a good night's rest. The morning after will be more pleasant if you can finish up in a warm & fuzzy place :)
Nice to meet you :)
I enjoyed your story. Thank you for sharing. One thing that came to mind after I finished reading it was that reliving the moments that led you to feeling this way as you typed out the story must have made you feel even more aroused.
I had to post a story shortly after the experience had ended the other night, it certainly keeps me aroused to have to relive the moments that just got me so worked up.
Jes
ChastityMasterUK has had me orgasm free since April 28th, 2008