Well, I'm back on the meds (for those who don't know, I was given a break from some of the meds that were torturing me). I am not on the worst one yet, nevertheless, I'm enduring anorgasmia and hyperactive libido daily. With the offending drug currently I can opt for a break, but then I must endure pain. I tried that for the first time yesterday, and it's not worth it. I had many, many orgasms. There was no satisfaction. I was hard again within a minute the first time, and mere seconds each subsequent time, the arousal seemingly worse with each cum. By the time enough of the drug was out of my system to try and get real satisfaction I was in too much pain to try again. So, it's back to a life of constant, insatiatable desire and no orgasms for me. I may have to go back on the other med and eventually increase the dose, meaning my desire will get exponentially worse and invade my sleep. I won't know until January.
To make it more bearable, my wife is elated to take full control of her love slave again and enjoy the benifets of the "virtual chastity belt". I doesn't really make it more bearable at all, but certainly makes it more fun. Since I have to endure it regardless it might as well be part of our play. I was told this morning to prepare myself for what is about to come (probably her hehe). I will be keeping count of her orgasms though. As those of you who read my blogs may know, with herculean efforts I can be made to have an orgasm, though not nearly as satifying as without the meds. There have been times that I have made the efforts, satisfied her until I couldn't hardly thrust anymore and when it was her turn to become the "driver" she simply said "I don't think I'm gonna let you cum today." and there was nothing I could do about it. I was truly totally helpless, and peering over the edge without the energy to push myself any further. For every time she does this to me, I'm going to have to return the favor when I get control :) It's only fair hehe (and she can't cum without either me, or specific toys that I tend to hide).