male denial

The week of ruins ended yesterday with the ultimate task of 12 ruined orgasms. It was a very difficult day. It started with quick arousals and struggles not to ejaculate. Then it moved to more sexual frustration, aching balls, and sore skin as the rubbing created more chafing and chapping. And the day ended with agonizing tugging and rubbing as I tried to get hard...and then struggles to get to the edge and ruin it. So many times I got to the edge and nothing happened. I was simply so drained of cum that nothing came out. And I would have to stroke even more.

OMG!! I don't think I've ever ached like this and had this much frustration! Two ruins in one day made me more horny. Four the next day left me insanely frustrated. SIX the next day was a mess of careful stroking, drooling cum and trembling with need and the struggle to hold back. And that added up to ten in just three days which was also leaving my cock a little sore from all the rubbing.

I’m now just 5 days away from going one entire year without any full, pleasurable orgasms via masturbation. This is not anything I ever expected to happen! I love jerking off. I used to do it very frequently. But last year, my Domme said that I really should learn to be a fuck stick for wifey and a toy for her. That meant that my little dick wasn’t anything for me to play with unless one of them told me to. And my Domme has told me to play a LOT. Daily, in fact. But with the exception of a few ruined orgasms nearly half a year ago, I’ve not been responsible for any solo emissions.

I got to have sex again this week! That is always an exiting time. And always a time to continue my work toward becoming a little fuck stick for my wife’s pleasure.

October 5, 2010...I jerked off and had a really good orgasm. The next day, I told my Domme about it. And she told me it should not happen again. That it was an orgasm and a load of cum that was wasted. I should have saved that for her or for my wife. I should not be seeking such isolated and selfish pleasures when I should be more focused on the pleasure of my wife and my Domme.

So she told me not to jerk off again until/unless she told me.

Hi,

I've just discovered this site, and I'm really pleased to be here. I'm a little disoriented, too....meeting up with a community of people who share some of the same passions that I have secretly held for most of my life. You women are really an inspiration! Whew.

I began masturbating with a little friend, before puberty. We'd lie on our two beds on sleepovers and masturbate together, telling each other what we were doing. My friend liked when we both orgasmed together, but even at that age I remember actually "faking" orgasms because prolonging the intense urge was so powerful, I didn't want to cum.

As I entered puberty and continued to masturbate, I continued to 'edge', but in actual sex, the notion of tease and denial never occurred to me--I guess we were too busy "performing". But that changed in college

Ten days since my last intercourse and my wife and I finally had sex again this weekend. And after several times of doing well and feeling so proud of myself, I performed so poorly. I guess I had gotten far too cocky about my ability.

Both my nipples and my cock are intensely sensitive. Neither needs more than fingertip touch - often just one finger. I like to shower and then lie naked on my bed, legs apart. My cock is already stiff and yearning, so I attend to my nipples. The glorious sensations filter down my body into my cock. So I touch it lightly with one finger, just a centimetre or so below the glans. And I start to get into my fantasy.

I finally got to have intercourse again...after 12 days. I know, 12 days doesn't seem extreme. But after using the plastic pussy every day to edge...and after using the prostate stimulator every day...I find myself feeling extremely horny very quickly.

And this time, I was less anxious about my orgasm since I knew I would not have to ruin it. My goal was to last long enough for my wife to cum first, but if that failed, I was still allowed to go all the way and cum inside her. Then I would finish her orgasm with my tongue.

If you read a couple of posts back, you know that the last time I had intercourse, I did not last nearly as long as my Domme demands. I ejaculated much sooner than my wife. Of course, I gave her as much oral sex as she desired to make sure she had a great orgasm. But I fell short of the 'fuck stick' criteria that my Domme is training me for.

The fear was that, if I fell short the next time, I would have to ruin my orgasm during intercourse! NOT an easy or fun thing to do, for sure! And something the brings about a lot of humiliation to go along with the intense frustration.