male denial, solo male

It has now been 3 full weeks since my last real orgasm. In a sense, this is a record-typing milestone for me. The only time I went this long was when I was taking 60mg of Paxil, and couldn't cum no matter how hard I tried.

I'm still not really very horny. Not during most of the day anyway. When I'm edging I sure want that orgasm, dammit! But the rest of the day I'm not aroused at all.

I'm starting to wonder if a full week of no-touch might not be a bad idea after all. For quite some time now I've suspected that I've been wanking with too much pressure (and not getting laid enough :P) that I've become desensitized. Well, leaving it alone for a while might improve that. And before too long I'll be absolutely dying to touch. And then when I start again, only slow, gentle strokes. It will probably drive me up the wall, but it might give me that heightened arousal I've been waiting so long for, as well as increase my sensitivity.

It has now been a full week since my last ruined orgasm. This ties my previous stretch of one week before my first accidental ruin during this period of denial.

I'm sort of venturing into new territory now. I've certainly gone longer than a week, but it was always with the 'help' of medication, or ruined orgasms. The last time I went this long without anything to mitigate the effect was that one 1-week stretch back in my early 20s. I'm looking forward to the next few days (and, depending on Saturday's vote, perhaps longer!), and hoping I experience some new sensations after being denied for so long.

So I just finished Ripple's tease. It was definitely intense! And fun. Although it needed some serious reworking just to make it work at all with my own sexual responses, and one part just had to be scrapped. :(

I decided to use Ripple's example birthdate rather than my own, since I figured the numbers would have worked out better. It turned out not to matter, as I had to adjust them anyway.

The plan as written was:

• Stroke 22x, pause 7s, repeat 79x
• Stroke 7x, pause 79s, repeat 22x
• Stroke 79x, pause 22s, repeat 7x

Stage 1

So, college_experiment left a tease for me for today: All the edging I want, but no hand contact.

The first question is, what exactly constitutes 'hand contact'? I could have taken it entirely literally and just put on a latex glove, but I don't think that's what she had in mind. And anyways, that would have sucked all the fun out of it. ^_^

So, the first thing I tried was an old standby: The showerhead tease. Unfortunately, despite working beautifully yesterday morning, it did absolutely nothing for me today. It couldn't even get me hard.

So I tried another slightly creative standby.

I see nobody left me a tease for today. Ah well. The invitation is still open to anyone that wants to participate!

In the absence of any teases, I went about edging as usual. It's still intense, still wonderful, and I'm still dying for a cum! There was a moment in my edging where I was so close, and I wanted it so bad, I started moaning. That was a first! I never moan when I'm wanking!

I had a few minutes to spare this afternoon while getting ready for an appointment, so while I showered, I tried the showerhead tease on myself. Boy did I respond fast! Usually the showerhead isn't enough stimulation to get myself aroused, at least not without a lot of time and effort. But in just a few minutes I was at the edge! Another moaning, thrashing edge! The sensations are a bit different, and I'm not used to them, so I had to be careful not to edge too close. But like before, I really wanted that orgasm!

Well, over in my Tease-A-Day thread, Kris W. gave me a little tease for today. 30 minutes alternating between 5 fast strokes and 5 slow strokes.

It was a good idea for a tease. Unfortunately it didn't quite "work"...

At first, I tried just going into the stroking, with just a minimum of 'warmup.' The tease prescribed a time penalty if I had to stop because I got too close to orgasm... I had the opposite problem. I could barely stay aroused with the level of stimulation I was giving myself. After half an hour, I was still barely even hard.

So, I know there's a few people following my blog and enjoying reading. And of course there are those participating in my denial via the vote. But perhaps a few of you would like to take a slightly more active role?

Here's the idea. Whoever responds first to this post gets to decide my teasing for the day. You can tell me how to play, how long, how many times, etc. Obviously you don't get to decide if I cum or not (at least, not with this vote thing going on ;)) but you can try to frustrate me further! And since it's just for one day, there's no commitment. You don't have to be a dom(me).

Well, the vote's over, and I didn't get to cum. Another week of frustration awaits. But that's ok. I'm enjoying it!

As usual, I was obsessively checking the results throughout the day. It was a little more interesting this time... most of the times I checked there was actually some activity, unlike last week where most of the votes had already been cast by the time I went to work.

Of course, I woke up during the night horny and had to edge, as usual. Checked the results each time, of course. Naturally, there was very little activity at that early hour.

A little good news... there were a few moments today where I was spontaneously aroused! I haven't gotten that in quite a while... usually when I'm aroused it's a conscious effort (I.E. when I'm edging). It felt nice. I'm hoping to experience more of that as the week goes on.

Well, my 24 hours of no-touch are up, and I wasn't really noticeably more frustrated during the day. There were a couple times in the morning where I woke up horny, but wasn't able to edge. And then there was the one time I caught myself humping the mattress...

But the rest of the day was pretty much the same as its always been. I just don't seem to arouse easily, even when denied. Part of it may be the Paxil, which could still be affecting my libido in subtle ways, even on this reduced dosage. But really, I think I'm just naturally this way. Have been all my life, even back into my teenage years. I'm just not that horny.

As expected, a few hours after last night's ruin, I was right back to feeling like I haven't cum in 2 weeks!

And that's how long it's been. 2 weeks since my last real cum! And I can feel it! Edging just now, I wanted to cum so bad! I was rolling my hips, flailing my legs, balling my fist, and thrashing my head while I kept myself on the edge. I could already feel the first stirrings of orgasm deep inside me, even as I resisted letting it happen. I can already tell how wonderful it would feel to just let go.

God I need to cum so bad!

It's later in the day now, and I just had another edge. And by edge, I mean an HOUR LONG edge! It was so intense. It felt wonderful, like I was having an orgasm the entire time... but just the beginnings of one! And the entire time I wanted to cum so bad. It was so awful and so wonderful. I never wanted it to end.