male denial, solo male

Hello. I have perused this website on multiple occasions but have hesitated in posting... until now. One of the reasons I haven't posted before is because this site is obviously devoted mostly towards female denial. Also, in the "about" section, it mentions that the site does not want to be overrun by straight, sub men. I certainly don't want to intrude on a close group and I hope that someone will let me know if another straight male sub is unwanted.

On to why I did decide to post. I call myself a sub, but that is not quite correct. At least I don't find myself acting like most of the other subs I have met on the internet. Before I even began to consider myself a sub in any sense of the word, I began to develop an interest, and later a fetish, in prolonged teasing, orgasm denial, or whatever you want to call it. The teasing is more important to me than the rest of the stuff that goes along with it. I just find that the best teasing comes when you are not in control.

Day 4 On Day 2, Saturday Night Goddess Susan teased me for a while in Chat aided by Miss Babykittykat. Part way through the tease, the last few days caught up with me and I could not keep eyes open, much less necessary parts in action, so the tease was ended early. My apologies to both Goddess Susan and Miss Babykittykat. Sunday Goddess Susan became slave susan and I got out the dice Sunday afternoon, ended up tease 30 min with timer each day, belt on low except for sleeping for the next 4 days. Have done one tease this morning and am very horny right now. Have not had the continuous bullet on for a while now so am not used to it and it is very effective at the moment. More later if anything happens worthwhile.

I'm a heterosexual male, 34 years old, who is apparently very submissive. I want to deny myself, because the feelings I get when I'm denied orgasm are so incredibly intense, but I don't have the discipline on my own. It's very strange. If someone tells me I can't have an orgasm, I can obey, but on my own, I give in very quickly. In the past, I once went 28 days without an orgasm, including multiple daily teasing sessions to the edge. However, that was with someone else controlling the situation and dictating both the rules and teasing sessions. The longer I go without orgasm, the more obedient and submissive I become to the person in control.

Day 67 Update. God, I am Horny and Aroused all the time now. I can not stand it any longer. Just did the math, I am 37 Tease Sessions behind. After tomorrow I will not be adding the Three each day till these are caught up, so that will help. It is still going to take me at least ten days, and that is if work slows up before I have finished this Denial Period and then I have to roll the Three Dice for Septembers period. This will mean more days (maybe ten or twelve) and tease sessions to complete September before Orgasm. It looks like Orgasm will come sometime in Late September if I keep my promise to myself and the Board and stick to the rules.

Day 55 Update 55 days without orgasm 38 of those with belt on now am behind 32 tease sessions. Got back from working on Sat am, did tease session in afternoon & evening. Both very intense. After reading GND s post concerning her orgasm found myself down maybe sharing her disappointment as we have shared this need for so long. In the past encouraged myself to keep going by thinking of the marvelous orgasm I would have at the end and exactly how I was going to do it. Toward the end of these teases found myself wondering if it is worth it, maybe I should just give up surrender to the need and let it happen. GND let us know if you have started giving yourself very good orgasms I am still in DENIAL just finished a Tease Session and as I was going up toward orgasm and then back down kept thinking of GND enduring the same torment last Tues and said if she can do it so can I. Made it. My problem now is the number of tease sessions I am behind due to working etc. I do not think at this point I can get them all made up before Sept 1 which is the day to roll the dice to add September so my relief day is now quite a guess and quite far away. Some random thoughts which occurred while I was working Since when I made my promise I did not have any idea just how bad the need could get does this mean the promise can be broken since I did not know what I was Promising? I used to think there were tremendous differences between male and female, now I am not sure. GND has a swollen and sensitive clit I have a swollen and sensitive penis GND has swollen and sensitive labia I have and sensitive balls We are both (well we were before she had her orgasm) suffering from pressure and tension in the muscles of the groin area We are both enduring the added tension and pressure from nearly orgasming during teases Remarkably similar are they not? A very needy Rapid

Hey all, I'm new to the site here but not to BDSM and denial.
I've been a submissive for about 10 years now.
Unfortunally I am unattached, and no I'm not looking for a Mistress or anything here so no worries about that. Just probally going to rant and rave some, and if I ever have any experience I'll throw them out.

Basically my main problem is that of most Dommes I find looking for a submissive, most are looking for money in exchange. ::sighs:: and that in some ways piss me off, but such is the way of the world. they wouldn't be around if people didn't pay them.
Of the others... They don't seem to be strict enough for me. I need strict rules and strict control... and without both I feel.. lost... not the same.. unhappy.