Male denial, solo male

Well I think I'm finally adjusting to the meds, hopefully for the last time.

I edged this morning, for the first time in a while. For some reason it's so much more intense than it used to be. When I finally got there, I was craving an orgasm, yet I didn't want to stop. I was humping the air at the end.

My libido is a bit lower now with the change in meds, but hopefully edging will stimulate it a bit. Certainly higher than it would be if I were just cumming whenever I felt like it.

I'm not sure what my next teasing game will be... perhaps the once-a-week rationing plan that I was considering some time back but never quite followed through on.

Well, I went back to the 20mg of Paxil again. I can't stand what the 40s do to me. I got my other anti-anxiety medication upped, and hopefully it'll keep the anxiety in check -- it seems to help more than the Paxil does to begin with, and it doesn't have the sexual side effects of the Paxil.

Nevertheless, my body still seems to be 'adjusting' somewhat. It may not have finished flushing the higher dose out of my system yet. I have noticed an improvement over the 40mg dose however. I was able to edge tonight for the first time in weeks, although it took quite a bit of time (and work!) to get to that point.

So, Archer666 left me with a tease, having me play with myself once an hour, just enough to get rock hard, but no edging.

This has turned out to be an unexpectedly fun tease. The touching feels so good, but it leaves me aching for so much more, having to stop so soon. I just did my hourly tease when I got home from work, and already I can't wait for my next chance at the top of the hour!

Archer suggested I sneak in a tease during lunch at work, but I'm just not adventurous enough to get into public play, and a bathroom stall is still a little too public for my liking. Besides which, it's such a cramped and un-relaxing position to be in it's not very conducive to masturbation.

I've suspended the Tease-A-Day program, since the response has been disappointing so far. Most of the teases I've gotten were given at my own instigation, which kinda defeats the purpose. Plus it's so frustrating getting stuck on no-touch day after day just due to lack of interest

If anyone comes up with some good teases, I'm still willing to do them. But in the absence of that I'll just be teasing and edging myself.

So I tried Anna's tease... 700 strokes, and if I can make it without edging, and without changing my speed, I could cum.

The tease didn't actually specify a speed, though, so I decided to go with a rather slow speed. I thought it would be a challenge by the 700 mark, but it turned out to be too slow, so it was an easy challenge.

I didn't even try for the full 700, I only did the 600 that would permit a ruined orgasm. It only seemed fair, after having let her have a ruined orgasm at the end of her tease, and because the challenge turned out to be so easy.

So I got myself edged up, and tried to ride it out a little bit, since that's the best way to have a ruined orgasm... get yourself to the point where you're begging for any release at all, then give yourself that ruin.

Well, I sorta talked butrfly into taking on Domme for a Day today after she suggested that I should edge before going in to work today... Which I couldn't do unless someone stepped up and instructed me!

Since she took on that role, that meant she had me for the whole day, so she posted a tease where I had to stroke 10 times in 40 seconds, rest for 20, then repeat for 20 minutes, with 5 strokes added each time.

Unfortunately, it didn't quite work out as hoped... the hope was that I would be hitting the edge and have to stop lots of times, but I didn't actually hit the edge at all... I think the problem was that I was spending so much effort on timing that I didn't think enough sexy thoughts. It sure was nice to be able to tease though, instead of being stuck no-touch!

Well, despite having a wonderful orgasm just a scant few hours ago, I'm horny again. So, I'm accepting submissions for Dom(me)-for-a-Day for tomorrow. Just reply to this post with a tease, however simple or complex, and I'll do it (within reason) tomorrow. Remember, if nobody gives me permission to do anything, it's no-touch for the day!

Well, I was originally planning to do this tonight, but I woke up early, and was so eager to touch myself that I decided to go ahead and start the tease, even if it meant depriving myself of a couple hours of sleep!

So, the tease was basically, to edge (but not cum, natch) in less than 12 minutes. Then again in less than 11 minutes, and keep decreasing it by one minute each time until I got down to 2.

I went into this knowing it was going to be intense. The clock would be running against me all the time, and it would be the difference between no-touch and a chance to cum. I went as far as to use a computer program as a timer, that didn't show me the amount of time left, so I would always be guessing.

One more day and I get to touch again!

This week has been pretty intense. My horniness has been building all week (finally!), and the arousal has felt wonderful. I'm not at the point of being aroused constantly, but I'm getting it a lot more than I used to (which was, hardly at all!)

It happens most often at night and in the morning, when I'm in bed and my mind can wander... I swear, my mind is occupied by nothing but sex, and I end up aroused all night long until I finally fall asleep. And then, when I wake up, it starts all over again. I've been getting serious morning wood all week!

It's now been 5 days since I last touched myself. And honestly... it's been lovely! I've been getting aroused more than I ever have before, including spending most of last night, and it feels wonderful!

It's also been very frustrating at times. My cock screams to be touched, but I've been a good boy, and haven't given in to the temptation. I have however been tormenting myself with sexy thoughts at every opportunity, and I've had a picture of my favorite AbbyWinters girl on my desktop (*drool*) for the last week. (Which itself has spawned many sexy thoughts... Oh, I'd love nothing more than to stick my face between her legs... mmmmmmmm...) I haven't had any raging hardons, but I've been very... tingly. It's exactly the sort of sensation I've been trying to cultivate.