Male denial

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So today around 3 pm central I ordered a CB-6000s, for those that don't know this is the smaller version of the cb-6000. This will be my first chastity device or indeed actual sex toy I own. I payed for 1 day shipping so hopefully it is here tomorrow. They already have it registered as leaving and it's shipping from only one state away. I'm pretty excited about getting it, I can't wait to try it on and see what it feels like. I am currently single so I was thinking about ways to restrain myself from just taking it off, I thought about leaving it in my work locker and only getting it out the next time I go into work.

Subs please don't blame / thank me if this happens to you.

As a single my game playing fantasies are becoming more extreme. This one pushes the envelope.
Dommes/ doms - before you begin tell your partner that if they can bite their tongues and don't beg to come throughout this cycle then they can come after they have completed one cycle.

Get your your guy / girl tied up in the position in which they feel most vulnerable.
Stroke their cock / clit 29 times. Make them count each one. Wait one second. Next cycle you stroke 28 times (them still counting) and wait two seconds. Follow the cycle downwards 27-3 26-4 until they are down to one stroke and a 29 second wait.

Well, my latest denial ended moments ago, and quite spectacularly!

This time I let Anna decide when I get to cum. This started 15 days ago, while she had 12 days to go until her own orgasm. I might have gotten to cum sooner, but I'm still having trouble with the meds. I'm not as well adjusted as I thought I was. Some days I can edge, some days I can't.

The days I could edge, however, were wonderful. It felt amazing to get to the edge, knowing I couldn't cum... being told I couldn't cum!

Well, today was my lucky day. I hadn't been able to edge at all for the past 2 days, so I skipped a dose today. That helped a lot, though it was still a struggle at times. When I finally did get to the edge, I wanted to cum... I wanted it badly. I finally started begging to be allowed to cum... and she let me.

For those who enjoy a little geekery with their T/D. This is F/m, and there actually is some relief from the torment, but it's quite a hot story, I thought.

It definitely appeals to my inner geek to try to create a machine that, through biofeedback alone, could do something like this. But, of course, for the purpose of torturing women, though it sure might be fun to be strapped into such a contraption myself as well.

I just had... what might have been a ruined orgasm... I'm not even sure.

It was weird. I felt an orgasm coming on, and stopped, and for a moment I felt
like i was teeter-tottering between going over and not going over.... except I'm not sure which side the teeter-totter landed on!

I didn't feel any orgasm, not even a ruined one. I spasmed like an orgasm, but that happens all the time, even just edging. I touched myself right after and was still sensitive like I hadn't cum, though a few moments later I wasn't aroused anymore.

I described it to Anna. She called it a 'ruined ruin.' An apt summary.

Well I think I'm finally adjusting to the meds, hopefully for the last time.

I edged this morning, for the first time in a while. For some reason it's so much more intense than it used to be. When I finally got there, I was craving an orgasm, yet I didn't want to stop. I was humping the air at the end.

My libido is a bit lower now with the change in meds, but hopefully edging will stimulate it a bit. Certainly higher than it would be if I were just cumming whenever I felt like it.

I'm not sure what my next teasing game will be... perhaps the once-a-week rationing plan that I was considering some time back but never quite followed through on.

Well, I've played the dice game several times in the last few days.

I was considering (from the start) a rule that said that I could have a ruined orgasm if I got a double. I was waffling on whether to implement it or not, since (a) it would make things a little too 'easy', and (b) I'd never get to cum since, knowing me, I'd take the ruined orgasm over taking a chance on rolling a triple every time. Well, Anna suggested an alternative -- I get a ruined orgasm if I roll two doubles in one session.

So last night I was playing the game... keeping myself on edge as I rolled the dice. Getting frustrated, wanting to cum so bad. Exactly what I wanted, of course. It was a good 20 minutes before I finally rolled a double. I wanted to cum so bad, I was hoping and praying that I'd roll that triple... but it was not to be. It was a 6 of course... 6 more torturous minutes.

I think I've finally adjusted to the meds. Tonight I was able to get myself to the edge so much more easily than I could even just a few days ago. And it was a spectacular edge, 25 minutes in all. I played the dice game with myself, and I didn't even get a double, let alone a triple. I was on the verge of giving up in frustration when I got distracted surfing the net for porn and lost the edge.

But really, I wasn't so much into the game, as much I just wanted to enjoy the edge. I haven't been able to do it in so long, and I really have missed how good it feels. And how frustrating it is. The whole time I was thinking just how wonderful an orgasm would be, even a ruined one. But my self-control won out, and I've been without an orgasm for 2 full days now.

Well, I went back to the 20mg of Paxil again. I can't stand what the 40s do to me. I got my other anti-anxiety medication upped, and hopefully it'll keep the anxiety in check -- it seems to help more than the Paxil does to begin with, and it doesn't have the sexual side effects of the Paxil.

Nevertheless, my body still seems to be 'adjusting' somewhat. It may not have finished flushing the higher dose out of my system yet. I have noticed an improvement over the 40mg dose however. I was able to edge tonight for the first time in weeks, although it took quite a bit of time (and work!) to get to that point.