female denial, hetero female

My Owner and I are having one of our off again, on again, off again spats, so I sit here today a single lady, unowned, free, not dominated. Yet, I’ve never been as into the denial as I am right now.

One of the things I enjoy about being unowned is that I get to decide when to play, what kind of play, how much, and whether that includes edging or not. Naturally, it always does lol. So through my masochism, and the orgasm denial, I tend to work myself into a state of extreme arousal, where I become a complete pain slut, and nothing is too much to take.

Hello to all,

I know I've been away for a while. Didn't really intend to. Life and having a bad cold/flu for a few weeks will do that. But all is better now. I guess it’s time to catch everyone up.

So I have NO idea why but I am absolutely FASCINATED with the thought of ruined orgasms lately! I'll tell you why. About 2 months ago, after not having cum for quite some time, I was asleep and I'm not sure what type of dream I was having but I actually woke myself up by cumming! But wait, I DIDN'T let myself! In my half-asleep state, I panicked at the thought of having an "unauthorized" orgasm and immediately spread my legs out so I had zero stimulation.

Okay , Master allowed me an orgasm..this next morning, and it was Fantastic! Long and powerful and intense and hot and everywhere and soooo goood... never mind what i may have said about delicious denial..those orgasms, when finally allowed are great! LOL, I can't wait for the next one..denial is not on my wish list at this moment, just another orgasm..But..i am not allowed...back to strict no-touch, for who knows how long. And i thought i would be all relaxed after my orgasm, silly me, just as horny as before, if not more..sighs..back to torment land for me.

Yesterday, the day before the last day..my task given to me by Master, was to shave my pussy! That was a tough one, but, I was not about to give up a chance for an orgasm. Not sure yet what today's last task will be.

I transferred over my blogger post (Strawberrysigh in denial) from last night to this site:

day..7

well,a small delay in my orgasm earning..i did my task yesterday, as my Dom had suggested, (5 minutes clothespins on my nipples..not too hard )but then lost the privilege of denial by some poor behavior. This is what happens when you let someone other than yourself run the show! LOL..Master doesn't come to this site (yet). Well, not always being a tricky sub, I naturally did not edge( or touch, I am on strict no touch other than for the evening edge),and it was fine because I was really tired.

Just a side note..i always get a kick out of choosing "female denial", when setting up the blog entry.. :)))

where was i? Oh yes..so, i had a nice edging time last night, played around a bit back and forth, start and stop, taking it easy, just enjoying that intense achy pleasure, as it became a bit stronger, then started to fade, then right back up again. I must say, just staying in that zone, is exquisite, that craving to let go, struggling with the desire to stay and have more and more pleasure, rather than cumming and ending...mmm, what a place to be.

There's a subbie I'm teasing long-distance... She can't get enough. She loves feeling so controlled and desperate. She rarely acts out, but I often threaten her with punishment just as a warning to give her best and put everything she's got into it. There's a great punishment I threaten her with that never fails to push herself into a subspace where she gives her all for me.