Girl Next Door's blog

Long time, no see.

I'm obviously in a state of great need, and appreciating it, if I'm seeking out sources of tantalism to make it worse.

Health has not been great for the last two years, and medication, depression, unappreciated frustration with it all has had a killer effect on my sexual interest.

I hope my present state is not merely a pleasant little blip

Apologies for absence. Life intervenes even when an orgasm doesn't.

After the ruined orgasm of June 8th, i continued to be denied until Sunday the 15th. I was given an orgasm.

The teases between the 8th and 15th were daily and intense. I knew ahead of time that the 15th would be the day, and i was looking forward to it very much. VERY much! It would be 4 weeks since my last full blown orgasm.

It was better than that one that followed a long denial period a couple of years ago (70 days... 10 days too long!). Unfortunately, it was still too fast though... so a bit of a let-down again. I really need it to be a long and slow build-up when it's been such a long time. I know 4 weeks doesn't sound that long to some, but it was an intense 4 weeks every single day of it!

Pre-meditated, deliberately ruined orgasm

It's been a very sexy and frustrating week. I've been teased most nights, but no orgasm. I have remained free of no-touch for the week, so I did a bit of playing! No bad results, no accidents... just increased frustration!

Thursday was particularly unbearable. I did not think I could make it through! But one minute at a time... and a refusal for permission to have an orgasm.. i made it through. I had to throw myself into some distracting activities to calm my over-active very horny mind! A gardening project. It worked.

Friday night was very crazy horny sexy. We made love and teased each other for a long time. I was insanely horny, and very assertive. I sucked him, I rode him, kissing, rubbing, rolling around. Great passionate stuff. It was hard to stop and go to sleep!!!

The weekend was massively intense, Friday night especially.

He kept me on a high for hours, over and over, using the same basics as recent days. But he has become much more aggressive!

We had some fairly frank conversation about the arse play. He sort of confronted me (not in a hostile way at all!) about the effect it has on me. I was honest about my response and my feelings....the confusion it stirs up - the combination of pain/embarrassment/pleasure. He said yes, he has been deliberately coaxing me onto the finger, and he likes it that it causes the confusion! Because he maintains this "nice guy" image, I never perceived that he was getting off on sort of forcing me to do something that is more into the "naughty taboo" zone precisely because it has aspects of discomfort for me! This is "real Dom" stuff, isn't it?!

Tuesday, 27 May

I cannot tell you how glad I was to see him tonight!!! At first he put me off, but I unzipped his trousers. He never stops that. ha. I sucked him to hard (didn't take long!). He was rubbing my back and my arse as I pleasured him.

Then, as I mentioned in last night's post (re: Monday), he told me to lie on my stomach and said tonight would be his way for his pleasure.

He placed me naked across his legs, with my pussy over his lap, and my arse totally exposed to him.

He started rubbing it, rubbing my back, reaching for my breasts squished out on my sides. He quickly appeared to be exploring my backside, pulling my cheeks apart, touching around my anus, pulling at the opening. It became obvious that this would be the focus of the evening. I should have known we were headed for this.

I was composing last night (so replace "tonight" with "last night"). Having trouble keeping up:

Monday

I'm just after being left slobbering & gagging following a massively intense tease. I'm writing this before posting the Sunday update (which I may never get to!), though the two would be very similar. The techniques he is presently employing are worth repeating. :)

He has stopped pushing me hard at the edge in the last couple of days. Tonight, every time he could tell I was close, he stopped. I think I am hornier than I have ever been in my life.

The initial wind-up tonight was on the outside of my slouchy pants. Very frustrating. Nowhere near any satisfying sensations. I had started out crazy horny before he even got here, so this extra-indirect approach was maddening! He took his time even touching over my slit! When he finally did though, he didn't have to pull my lips open to make "contact" with my clit. I was already gaping open with my clit protruding from between the lips.

I actually don't know how long since my last orgasm. I'm sure I must have had one since last update 2 weeks ago, but if I did, it was at my own hand, and a ruined org. I'll have to look back to see when the last "sanctioned" orgasm was.

Thanks all for reassuring comments on the "No rest for the wicked" thread. I get needy when horny. Sorry...

BF did a fabulously taunting tease Friday night, but when he fucked me at the end, he had an orgasm. Then golf, rugby & garden Saturday took his attention; and a few thoughtless comments sent my overly-sensitive spirits plummeting. So I wasn't very horny Saturday. Well, I was horny... but not interested in indulging. Had trouble talking myself out of feeling ...whatever this is. Oh well. I think I become hyper-sensitive when I am this horny.

BF gave me an orgasm Saturday morning and I dropped off immediately.

But... He took me back up Sunday. That established a new state of need.

Tuesday night was a savage tease. He used the "Tripod" from the start. I was not wet, so the two external prongs had a strong grip in tension, holding my lips tightly and widely apart. My clit was well exposed.

I started getting aroused immediately, and he wasn't even touching me yet. Feeling the air on my clit and feeling my tender skin pulled apart let me know that it was very available. This is something that drives me mad and i wish BF would exploit it to a greater degree.

I've been dealing with some fairly intense pain issues lately, but I've found in the last couple of weeks (serious denial, serious teasing sessions), that my perception of pain, tolerance of the pain, attitude towards the pain (and everything in general), has been positive and improved. At moments, of course, it (the pain) is sort of all-consuming, but I think the endorphins and other yummy neurotransmitters that get pumped into the bloodstream during arousal have a strong tendency generally to lessen the pain perception and heighten the feel-good overall sense of well-being. Not having an orgasm seems to keep some of them going. I wish someone would do a study! (Go for it MJ and t!)

Sunday I received only a small tease session. He was doubly spent, so his interest level went down a bit. He is entirely distractable though. ha. After a number of sporting events were over, I started standing by the tv, lifting my top and displaying my breasts. ;-)

So I got the little tease session (and he got another little oral session from it).

We have a new toy and used it in that tease. It is less work for him that way, and actually is more effective on me! It is not designed as a sexual toy, but I couldn't have designed it any better, I don't think?? It came as part of a relaxation gift set I received at Christmas. It is a 3-pronged (Y-shaped) acrylic body massager! I'm calling it the Tripod. They are VERY inexpensive!