chastity's blog

So, I recently made the move back to ongoing denial, which I'm very happy about.

As part of that, I recorded the sound of one of my last ever orgasms, and then made it into a cheesy home video, lol.

I'd love to upload it somewhere so that I can link to it off my profile here, or fetlife or collarme - but fetlife only has video for those who have paid for it.

Does anyone know of any good adult websites where I can upload a video, and link to it for those who are interested?

Many thanks!

Oh, and Merry Christmas :-D

chastity xxx

Well it’s been 8 months, 17 days, 11 hours, 56 minutes and 54 seconds since my last orgasm.

I’m so aroused, it’s almost impossible to describe. I don’t think that anyone who had not been denied this long could really understand how it feels.

6 months in denial and I’m impossibly aroused.

I was wearing the red silky underwear when Sir got home and after squeezing and mauling my ass some, he lifted up my dress and rubbed himself against the silky material till he had a raging hard-on. I wasn’t complaining, I’m desperate to feel him inside me.

Wow, it has sure been a long time from ‘nearly 6 months’ to ‘6 months’. In fact, it was nearly a month by itself.

When I got to 22 weeks and 5 days (my previous best) I was so used to thinking of that as ‘nearly 6 months’ that I thought an actual 6 months was surely just round the corner.

Well, it has been the longest ‘nearly’ of my life! Three weeks and 2 days, to be precise. And I have been through a whole range of emotions and reactions to my denial.

It’s so hard not to cum right now.

It’s been 5 months since I last orgasmed, and it will be at least 7 before I orgasm again.

It is fast approaching 2 months without orgasm, and I find myself reflecting on the journey so far, and to come.

I feel absolutely fine about the denial – I’ve mentally given up any claim to an orgasm. I don’t feel that I want, need or deserve one, on the contrary, I’m very happy to deny my body access to the pleasure that it wants so much. I love the thought of how long it might be, serving others sexually without being given release myself. I love the torment of it.

My Owner and I are having one of our off again, on again, off again spats, so I sit here today a single lady, unowned, free, not dominated. Yet, I’ve never been as into the denial as I am right now.

One of the things I enjoy about being unowned is that I get to decide when to play, what kind of play, how much, and whether that includes edging or not. Naturally, it always does lol. So through my masochism, and the orgasm denial, I tend to work myself into a state of extreme arousal, where I become a complete pain slut, and nothing is too much to take.

Well, a few days into my year of denial, and I still feel good.

Denial is like this rich bubble of promise, hovering round my pelvis. I can feel it, I enjoy it, I smile to myself when I realise it’s there.

And so it begins, one whole year of not cumming, not orgasming, no release, no days off – just service, giving pleasure to Sir, making his life easier, letting him use my body.

This is the most submissive I have ever been to anyone. Sir is the most dominant that anyone has ever been with me. It’s scary, but I like it.

Well, it’s been an interesting few days!

Christmas Day was hard in some ways for me – Sir used my mouth very hard in the morning, leaving me sore and disgruntled that I hadn’t cum. I had to just get on with the day, serving him, getting used to the idea that it wasn’t about my pleasure anymore, it was about being a good service slave and putting his needs first.