Archive - Dec 21, 2012

The first time Master and i made a 'serious' attempt at orgasm control and denial, it ended badly. We didn't communicate enough about what our individual desires were before we started playing with it. i should've asked him more questions regarding his vision and goals about it before i agreed to anything. And, as his submissive, it's much more difficult to propose an adjustment once play starts than to have myself heard and considered BEFORE play starts. Anyway, after a short trial, i was back to giving myself an orgasm whenever i wanted, so long as i reported it to him. i was both relieved to be without such strict rules and feeling kind of depressed that i had so much freedom. (Freedom sometimes feels so empty and lonely.)

And then i found this site...