Archive - Jun 2009

So, I took a full 24 hours to recover from the last Big O, since I wasn't really feeling horny enough last night. So I started again this morning.

4 of Clubs. A little warm-up tease. Watching the "Jelly Wrestling" video from AW. Bunch of cute girls in bikinis wrestling in jelly, giggling, trying to pull each other's clothes off.

6 of Hearts. That was fast. 6 minutes of teasing, watching Angie from AW (one of my favourites) get naked and play with herself. Then get myself to the edge, until I'd ready to cum, then look at the card...

3 of clubs. No orgasm just yet. 3 minutes of no-touch.

I've posted a few times this year, asking for someone to help me get ahold of myself and stop masturbating to orgasm all the time. And several have replied, and I am so selfishly lusty that then I just don't answer and go back to masturbating all I want to.

I've added to that and have gone back to meeting men for sex on alt.com. I *am* getting spankings that I deserve and am serving well, but I am cumming, too. As I haven't told them that I really need to be controlled/denied in that way.

I would like someone to take control - locally if in the Seattle area. Or from a distance. And guide and instruct - so that I am getting the denial I need and punishment when I am selfish and stray.

Well, I got the card that released me to orgasm freely. But I decided,
since it was only day 2, I was going to try something far more interesting.
The following is a short-term game that crikey came up with, and since I
have all day I'm going to try it out.

Well, as I suspected, the 'quickies' are a lot more frustrating than the rides! With the rides, I could hover as I approached orgasm, enjoying the wonderful feelings. (And the fantasies in my head!) With the quickies, I have to stop cold, leaving myself hanging, begging for more. And I'm getting that "How can I do this???" feeling when I do!

Those last moments as the orgasm starts to build are the hardest, knowing that I'll have to stop any second now, but trying to milk the last little bit of enjoyment out of it before I do.

And unlike the rides, the quick edges leave me ready for more

Well, as promised, here is the feedback on the ruined orgasm weekend. I fell way behind my intended quota, mainly because this weekend ended up being unexpectedly hectic and my Aunt Flo came to visit, resulting in a much lower sex drive. I managed to get in about 10 ruined orgasms. One thing I noticed about them was that since my body has learned to really appreciate the edge, the feeling right before the orgasm as I went over (but then stopped) was just about as intense as an orgasm. Like Jester observed in his experience blog, I think my body has learned to "accept edges as orgasms" as well. I'm very happy to have added these intense feelings to my sexual experience and being. That right there prolongs orgasm because just the feeling of getting there in almost equally as intense as a full-blown orgasm, and extremely lovely in and of themselves.

Well I made the most of yesterday's draw and had two more orgasms. As usual, the second one was much more intense and pleasurable, but otherwise not all that noteworthy. I tried something new (and kinda oddball) for the third one though.

I took an empty toilet paper tube, threaded a latex glove through it (to soften the hard cardboard edges, and to make lubing it easier), rubber-banded it down, lubed the life out of it, and used it as a ghetto pocket-pussy.

It was an interesting sensation, very different from my usual technique. Pumping it in and out felt good, and was reasonably stimulating, though not enough to get me to the edge on its own. Twisting the tube produced a less intense, but very nice sensation. In the end, I used my fingers to masturbate myself until I was good and hard, then used the tube to get myself off. I was originally going to just edge with it, but I was really wanting to cum, and wanted to feel what this new toy would feel like, so I went ahead and pushed myself over the edge.