Archive - Jun 2009

Brief notes from the day, as relayed by SMS.

9:16AM
M: Just had a flash, imagining you in rope harness today, beneath your clothes, embracing you tightly, reminding you of your status as my property, my flesh, my slave...

L: I need no reminders, my master. I am always aware that I am yours.

M: Yes, you are mine, your body belongs to me; to caress with rope, to dress you as I wish, to use you for my pleasure.

L: It is my pleasure to be used as it is your pleasure to use me. In the absence of your orders I try to treat your property as you wish, but I only wait for your command to do anything differently.

I'm generally turned off by T&D stories that involve D&s, since I'm so not into the D&s. Not only am I not into it, it's an active turn-off.

Realization #1: It's not the stories that are too hardcore D&s for me to appreciate, it's that I'm too hardcore vanilla.

Hardcore vanilla. What a concept.

Realization #2: It's not so much that the stories have too much D&s content. It's more that they're lacking the one thing I really long to read about.

What I love about a really great T&D story/experience is hearing how much the girl loves it -- something that features prominently in my own (few) stories. The girl is always smiling and happy, through every moment, enjoying the whole experience. Clearly loving it, even as she finds out she gets to wait another week, because she's just so passionately into it. She's a playful tease too, always denying her husband with a loving smile. And of course he loves it just as much.

Well, I made it the full five days without losing my load. Some of those days saw me horny all day long, and others saw me pretty much uninterested. But there was plenty of edging to be had the whole time!

Yesterday was weird. The day before I was going "I get to cum tomorrow!" (sorta; I was planning it to be a ruined one from the start,) but yesterday I was pretty unaroused most of the day. I came home from work so tired that I originally planned to just go straight to bed without any playtime. But one quick porn video later I was going "That's it, I'm losing my load tonight!"

(Yes, I just learned that euphemism, and as you can probably start to tell, I rather like it.)

Stroke your breasts, my slave. Start on the outside and trace in. Don't touch your nipples... Run your hand down your body between your breasts... Trace across them again; let your finger touch your nipple, once, so lightly... Oh, my master. I'm so hot already. Being on no-touch... Thinking about you... I love how you control me. And I love controlling you. Keep stroking your breasts. A little harder on the nipples. A little harder. And now the clamp. On one side only. My nipples are so sensitive now, Sir. It hurts; it hurts. My slave. Keep it on for two minutes. But not starting yet. Wait... Now. I will time you.

Yesterday I was teased without mercy and lost track of how many "Almost O's" I had.
I begged to cum and was of course denied.
He told me to do yet another "Almost" and I told him I honestly didn't think I could do another and keep my sanity.

He laughed and said he'd let me rest--One week without being touched below the waist.

At first I thought that sounded pretty good but I'm already missing the teasing.

Anyone else gone through this teasing then no-touch thing?

Oddly enough, after yesterday's ultra-horny streak, I wasn't very aroused when I got home. Just teased myself a little and then lost interest.

I went and edged anyway, before I went to bed, (and when I woke up in the middle of the night, and when I woke up again in the middle of the night, and when I woke up in the morning)... even though I wasn't really in the mood. I just did it because I always do it before bed.

I don't think I'm going to do that tonight. I was hardly aroused at all today, and I suspect it might have been all the edging last night. I swear, if I do it long enough it seems to relieve almost as much horniness as an orgasm.

She was on the bed, naked, absentmindedly playing with herself.

"Having fun?" he said with a smile, enjoying the visual. He knew she hadn't
cum for over a week, and was starting to feel the urge for release.

"Ooh, I wanna cum!" she said, confirming his suspicion.

"No you don't," he said with a wicked grin. "You just want to edge. You're
loving this and you want it to go on."

She winked at him and continued playing.

They had moved beyond their old games where one partner would take control
of the other's orgasm for a time, and onto something more subtle. She would
deny herself, and the he would have to tease her, try to encourage her to go on
denying herself. It had less D/s overtones, and they found it more fun that
way.

I spent almost all of the day aroused, and it felt great! Not raging-hard-on aroused, just I-can't-wait-to-get-home-and-tease-myself aroused. I'm really glad I went this entire 2 days without a ruin. This is just the sort of feeling I've been waiting for ever since I got (back) into denial just a few months ago.

Three more days until I get my next ruin. I've got some actual incentive to not give in now. And I'm hoping that when I do get that ruin that the horniness comes back quickly... that's the whole point of the exercise.

While we were enjoying the outdoors, my lovely mistriss wife outfitted me with a fairly unisex looking dainty necklace with a penant of a sailboat on it. I am unable to use the clasp because my fingers won't work for the type of clasp it has and I am not permitted to remove it anyway. It is my new collar. I am often quite aware of it's presence because of my sensitivity to metal directly against the skin. I can bear it if the metal is loose, but rings I cannot wear. I also have a bracelet that I am forbidden to remove. I still am on medications that prevent me from orgasm, that with grea