Archive - May 2009

I think I've decided... I'm going to go with the drill-down method. I've gotten so frustrated the last 24 hours, I can't even edge like I used to anymore. I get so close I can't even ride it anymore, I have to slow waaaay down until I'm at almost a hair trigger and have to either stop or ruin it. I think my body is telling me I'm ready! That's probably why I'm so hooked on the ruined ones, my body wants orgasm so badly it'll take a ruined one, but it's not enough so it wants more so quickly.

So I'll start drawing and doing some marathon sessions, I can 'legally' cum in just a few days that way.

Well, I did it again. I gave myself another ruined orgasm. But this one was different. I pushed myself just a tiny bit farther. Instead of stopping just as the ejaculatory sensations started, I waited until I could just start to feel the cum rushing through me to exit my dick. I ended up having two good spurts, and plenty more leakage, but no actual orgasm. It left me hard and horny, yet I wasn't able to bring myself to the edge again after that. I guess I really cleared out the fluids this time, there must be nothing left!

It actually felt kinda nice in a way. Not orgasmically nice. Just nice. Frustrating as hell, but still enjoyable, kinda like edging is. Can't wait to see how I feel in the morning because of it!

I was incredibly horny most of the day today. I went from the old "I could keep this up forever" feeling to "I want to cum, dammit!" in the space of a few hours. Those ruined orgasms must have really had an effect!

There could be as many as 20 cards left to draw before I hit the joker, or the end of the deck. Can I make it 20 days? Do I want to try? Or should I start drawing lots of extra cards and drill down to the bottom in a few marathon sessions? I'm torn. The challenge of making myself wait when I'm desperate might be fun.

Anyway, today's draw is...

Well, I had my first felt orgasm last night. I had been teasing myself all day and working my nipples purple. When it finally was time to allow the big o, I positioned the suction device (turkey baster sucker) onto my clit and I tied my legs tightly together. I did, in fact, re-tie them a few times to get them as snug as I could, so that they were squeezing together even when the muscles were all relaxed. I pumped the device, feeling my swollen tortured clit being drawn deep in, pulling and then being shaken back and forth. Nothing is actually touching my clit during this, it is the suction pressure and the air moving the clit which gives the stimulation. The mouth of the device pinched by surrounding labia minora in places, so there was a mild element of pain present too. I played with my well-tormented nipples and edged myself several times before finally allowing myself to cum. The orgasm was fantastic as any orgasm would feel after 9 days. Having my legs tied together subdued it somewhat, but my clit spasming and suspended in air pumped waves of pleasure into me. As they subsided I could feel my body gearing up for another orgasm. (I'm very multi-orgasmic) But that was it, I'd had my one and it was time for bed.

First post here :-)

I write erotica, most of it on Literotica (here), and figured I would point users toward an orgasm denial story I particularly enjoyed writing: "Chamber Six." Futuristic sci-fi story, but I think even those who don't care for SF will enjoy this one.

I also have a blog and a separate community on LiveJournal which occasionally include orgasm denial fragments.

We have a group of active people here at the moment who are on their own - or sharing experiences and encouraging each other in chat and blog posts. In some ways, if you really want the perfect T&D experience it may be better to be in that situation. Who knows better than you what would be the perfect tease?

I'm married to a great guy who is not truly a dom, though he's happy to play those games with me. He finds it fun and enjoyable, but I don't think in the same way a real dom would - he does it to make me happy. We've played with bondage, spanking, etc. for many years and I am always happy to indulge his fantasies the way he indulges mine.

Well, I did it. I gave myself a ruined orgasm, completely willfully.

After hearing about LolitaLynn's experience with her ruined one, I thought I'd give it a try. It was sort of a spur-of-the-moment decision, while doing my edging session. I was excited, I wasn't sure what to expect. I was thinking as I got close, I'm going to do it, I'm going to ruin an orgasm!

Well, I finally reached the point of no return and quickly pulled my hand back. And it was just as I expected. A decent spurt, and virtually no orgasmic pleasure at all. It wasn't rivulets of cum like I was expecting after 12 days now, but a decent puddle on my groin. And it left me completely ready to go at it some more.

I realized something the other day: I'm an idiot. Well, actually, I already knew that, I just discovered a new instance of it -- Remember when I was on no-touch for most of a day, because I used up all my edges for the day and then called in sick to work? I could have used the extra card rule to draw another card for a chance to play. Of course, if it turned out to be the joker (it wouldn't have, as the next day's draw shows) I would have been humped. (And not in the good way.) I'd have to go through the entire rest of the deck (or half-deck, as I have it set up) before I get to come.

However, there is a little escape hatch there. The rules specify no limit to the number of extra cards I could draw in a day. I could theoretically just keep drawing cards until I got to the end. Provided I was up for the marathon session that would surely result. ^_^ The only time I can't draw an extra is if I draw an ace; then I'm stuck on no-touch all day. Aside from that, I could orgasm today, completely within the rules of the game, as long as I was willing to spend all day tormenting myself. ^_^

Anyway, today's draw is...

So I got my six edges in last night. I had to get up relatively early for work today so I didn't spend a whole lot of time riding them. A 'quickie', so to speak. I did ride the last one for a minute or two, and had some wonderful minigasms afterwards. I think the edging and minigasms really do help me sleep. I didn't feel all that sleepy when I was done, but I dropped off pretty quickly.

The nice thing about these minigasms is, they often go on for several minutes after I'm done. Not constantly, just once a minute or so after the first few. Just when you think they're all over, you get a pleasant surprise. Last night I think I had one a full 10 minutes after I was done.

Last night was my night to orgasm. Before I came I wanted to ride the edge to get myself really worked up for the big cum. I tried, but must have gone a bit too far. I felt the orgasm building so I stopped. There was this feeling of warm pressure in my pussy. I tensed every muscle, squeezed my legs together, in short did every trick I know to hold off an orgasm. After a while, when I thought the coast was clear I reached down there and found everything super sensitive. Yup, it was an orgasm! A ruined one, but orgasm none the less. I reached down and rubbed for the last lingering feelings, which were not any more intense than my minigasms. The orgasm ruined or not counts, so that was it for me.