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Well, as I suspected, the 'quickies' are a lot more frustrating than the rides! With the rides, I could hover as I approached orgasm, enjoying the wonderful feelings. (And the fantasies in my head!) With the quickies, I have to stop cold, leaving myself hanging, begging for more. And I'm getting that "How can I do this???" feeling when I do!

Those last moments as the orgasm starts to build are the hardest, knowing that I'll have to stop any second now, but trying to milk the last little bit of enjoyment out of it before I do.

And unlike the rides, the quick edges leave me ready for more

I've posted a few times this year, asking for someone to help me get ahold of myself and stop masturbating to orgasm all the time. And several have replied, and I am so selfishly lusty that then I just don't answer and go back to masturbating all I want to.

I've added to that and have gone back to meeting men for sex on alt.com. I *am* getting spankings that I deserve and am serving well, but I am cumming, too. As I haven't told them that I really need to be controlled/denied in that way.

I would like someone to take control - locally if in the Seattle area. Or from a distance. And guide and instruct - so that I am getting the denial I need and punishment when I am selfish and stray.